An Hero
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- Nov 1, 2023
- 9
Would lighting 10 x 22 x 5 x 27 cm ; Weight · 0.622 kg disposable grills outside, then placing them in a 3m x 3m room once the embers are white realistically raise CO level to a point I could down enough alcohol and some saved Xanax to just go to sleep peacefully with my chronically sick 10 year old dog by side work?
I'm a pussy and not enough of a man to be brave enough to attempt other methods, fuck knows.
I just want to go to sleep peacefully with the only living thing to have loved me unconditionally over the years.
I have no job, I have lost everything, I am facing eviction, my partner left me, my family won't speak to me as I spoke up about sexual abuse in my childhood and they don't believe me. I can't get my dog back to a country where I can access work, I had a car crash a couple of weeks ago while drunk and am facing a criminal charge and can't drive. I have CPTSD and despite being a "successful" person up until the pandemic, my life has collapsed since then, despite pulling myself out a couple of times. These last serious of events have left me with no viable way out. Everyday is torture. I just want peace.
I just want to be able to go to sleep peacefully with my old sick friend next to me and us both to drift off together.
Is it cruel to involve him? He has kidney issues, requires care and attention daily that I give him. I can't find anywhere to regime him and I can't bear the fact of him living out the little time he has left wondering where I went and waiting for me to come back.
I'm a pussy and not enough of a man to be brave enough to attempt other methods, fuck knows.
I just want to go to sleep peacefully with the only living thing to have loved me unconditionally over the years.
I have no job, I have lost everything, I am facing eviction, my partner left me, my family won't speak to me as I spoke up about sexual abuse in my childhood and they don't believe me. I can't get my dog back to a country where I can access work, I had a car crash a couple of weeks ago while drunk and am facing a criminal charge and can't drive. I have CPTSD and despite being a "successful" person up until the pandemic, my life has collapsed since then, despite pulling myself out a couple of times. These last serious of events have left me with no viable way out. Everyday is torture. I just want peace.
I just want to be able to go to sleep peacefully with my old sick friend next to me and us both to drift off together.
Is it cruel to involve him? He has kidney issues, requires care and attention daily that I give him. I can't find anywhere to regime him and I can't bear the fact of him living out the little time he has left wondering where I went and waiting for me to come back.
