2025

[pariah80]

I'm catching the bus in a few weeks. There are many reasons why, and I'm not going into any of them. If you've read my past threads, you have an idea of my reasons. This is just a curious poll. To those continuing on into the next year and beyond, what is your reason for keeping going?

 

[bluesun]

Im planning my 2nd attempt before 2025 so hoping I don't make it to the new year.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I don't currently have any access to any other methods and my parents are also aware of my suicide attempts earlier this year, so I kind of have to wait it out. Plus, I want to visit my bf and hang out with him irl before I die. I'm probably not going to attempt again until I've graduated (if I do even end up somehow graduating).

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd never wish to exist, I only suffer as this existence was tragically imposed and I'm denied the option to painlessly free myself from it in peace with no risks of ending up in a situation of way worse torture from trying to die going wrong. It's just so cruel and painful how the option to peacefully die is denied for me as I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, to me existence is an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all.

I personally see no benefit to being conscious in this existence rather I see existence as an dreadful, unnecessary harm where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just for one to be tortured by old age and die anyway. I just see so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to suffer with suffering seen as something to force and prolong no matter what instead, to me human existence truly is just terrible, pointless suffering and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence, I'd always prefer to die as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer but more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering at all.

 

[TheHolySword]

My life insurance policy pays out on suicide after 2 years, which is in May 2025. That's it. That's the reason. Though it does give me time to write letters, finalize a will, and spend some last moments with my loved ones.

 

[Namelesa]

Probably a lot of people choose other cus its either multiple reasons or their reason wasn't listed. Maybe add options such as wanting to stay for someone else.

I am mostly staying cus of stupid hope that life at some point will become tolerable and some things I maybe want to do with my life so I don't regret not doing them a potential afterlife. If I knew after death is non-existence then I would want to try to die more as I would not be able to have regrets in nothingness.

I also want to stay cus I don't want my best friend to suffer from my absence. He is the person I am closest to that understands and empathizes with me the most. I know he would suffer greatly from my suicide as he relies on me for emotional support. I don't care as much with other people as they have purposely trapped me here and prevented my ctb attempts as much as possible and so want them to suffer from my suicide to have revenge on those people.

 

[whatcouldofbeen]

other, i hope im not here for much of 2025, if i can be productive and sucessfully plan out and execute my exit plan, if i get my supplies, if i dont pussy out, if i dont overthink, if i get roped into false hope again, if i decide how im going, if i can astral project before i go, if this if that. if i can finally catch a break after fighting against the current for what feels like so long, then i suppose im a happy lucky man and its a sign that i dont belong and my times up.

time to go buddy, you had a good run

its kinda funny and sad, when i was kid in like 2014 i always wished to be grown up and wondered what i would be like in some far off big year like 2025. I guess i still think this about 2050 maybe even 2100 but i guess i got my answer. sorry it sucks so much kiddo, funny how i even wished in 2014 that my future self from like 2030, 2025 and 2020 could visit me and tell me stuff all sci-fi like. 2020 me wouldve been optimistic about the new friends at the skatepark and that new hobby i was obsessed with, i get sad thinking about telling some 4th grader that he was going to kill himself in 2025. in this delusional scenario this snotty poorly behaved kid would have to come to grips with the concept of suicide, unfuffilled potential and the fact that thats going to be him. and that now he has a time limit set, hangng over him like rem from death note. so cruel that a kid has to know that thats what i turned out to be.


but honestly who am i kidding this is a hypothetical

 

[pariah80]

Probably a lot of people choose other cus its either multiple reasons or their reason wasn't listed. Maybe add options such as wanting to stay for someone else.

I am mostly staying cus of stupid hope that life at some point will become tolerable and some things I maybe want to do with my life so I don't regret not doing them a potential afterlife. If I knew after death is non-existence then I would want to try to die more as I would not be able to have regrets in nothingness.

I also want to stay cus I don't want my best friend to suffer from my absence. He is the person I am closest to that understands and empathizes with me the most. I know he would suffer greatly from my suicide as he relies on me for emotional support. I don't care as much with other people as they have purposely trapped me here and prevented my ctb attempts as much as possible and so want them to suffer from my suicide to have revenge on those people.

Yeah, that's why I made an 'other' option. Loved ones, pets, obligations, all that falls under other.

 

[beseechgod]

I voted little faith in method but really I'm just overwhelmed by all the variables and steps in the process. Trying to figure out how to access methods and planning carefully is not the type of thing my brain is wired to do. I'm having to force myself through this process.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Still hanging on for the sake of my Dad.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't have any access to a suicide method that is reliable

 

[SoulWhisperer]

No current resources so I'm going to see if I can salvage my life meanwhile.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

It's complicated :( Hopefully I won't see much of 2025 though.

 

[pariah80]

It's complicated :( Hopefully I won't see much of 2025 though.

I get it. We all have our reasons to do it or not to do it. Still sending love and hugs, no matter your decision.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I don't want to ruin the holidays for my family so I'm trying to stick around until New Year's or a bit longer.

 

[alivebutnotliving]

Waiting to receive my SN

 

[CatLvr]

Still hanging on for the sake of my Dad.

Hanging in there for my kids. They may all be adults and living their own lives, but I still see the little toddlers they were. I cannot abandon them like that.

 

[DoMore]

My life insurance policy pays out on suicide after 2 years, which is in May 2025. That's it. That's the reason. Though it does give me time to write letters, finalize a will, and spend some last moments with my loved ones.

Same here, I have 8 months or so. You're right, it's given me time to try to get my finances into order and to heal some family rifts, well, try to anyway. I hope all goes well for you.