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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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Tossing and turning in the morning, I dreamed weird things, mostly about my past, so I woke up by hearing myself cry. At 1pm. Naturally, that ruins the day from the start. So I open my tablet and look at emails, SaSu and YouTube to distract myself with other thoughts. By 4pm I finally have mental energy to get up and eat something. If it was not calorie dense delicious foods I wouldn't even have bothered eating at all because it would not have been stimulating enough to look forward to. The whole day was spent fighting off crippling nostalgic emotions about the past with my spouse. Only by 10pm I finally feel emotionless enough to focus on my hobby of learning new philosophy, theology, science etc. After 10pm is when my "day" starts. I read articles, post and read things here, message my family so that they don't worry about me etc. But by 3am I will have to put on a lecture on my tablet and force myself to sleep, hoping I will pass away in my sleep.

Feel free to comment on how my daily routine can be made even more pathetic. 😅🤣😂
 
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Hollowman

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Dec 14, 2021
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At least you have a hobby I can't get anything out of mine anymore.
 
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michaellionel

michaellionel

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Sep 3, 2024
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your daily routine is similar to mine...................
 
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OptingOutSmiling

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So sad that the past can kill us so, every day. Sending you love
 
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