Beautiful_Disgrace
Invisible shadow
- Mar 8, 2020
- 134
So, my suicidal thoughts began when I was forced to live in my car for a few weeks on my 28th birthday. And even at the height of my depression, I was still trying to motivate myself to keep going for my son. Weird thing is, I don't even remember adding the last part. Anyways, I couldn't share this with anyone, so I figured I would share with you guys.
The sun comes up
Time to start my day
I watch the clouds as I slowly waste away
Dreaming for the chance to have a break
It's so hard to be awake
As my soul begins to disintegrate,
My heart continues to fill with hate
Smiling faces, staring down at me
Grinning all the while, their spirits free
"Stay positive!" They say.
As I try to keep dark urges at bay
I don't belong here
That much is clear
I'm invisible, a shadow to ignore
Until someone sees my body wash ashore
The sun sets, it's time for bed
The darkness lingers on in my head
As I hope, I wish, oh god I pray
That tomorrow will never be another day
Keep on pushing
Keep on breathing
Keep on dreaming
Keep on moving
Keep on trying
Keep on living
The sun comes up
Time to start my day
I watch the clouds as I slowly waste away
Dreaming for the chance to have a break
It's so hard to be awake
As my soul begins to disintegrate,
My heart continues to fill with hate
Smiling faces, staring down at me
Grinning all the while, their spirits free
"Stay positive!" They say.
As I try to keep dark urges at bay
I don't belong here
That much is clear
I'm invisible, a shadow to ignore
Until someone sees my body wash ashore
The sun sets, it's time for bed
The darkness lingers on in my head
As I hope, I wish, oh god I pray
That tomorrow will never be another day
Keep on pushing
Keep on breathing
Keep on dreaming
Keep on moving
Keep on trying
Keep on living
