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goggleboxers
Student
- May 24, 2018
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Below is possibly the way o feel - death is such a big thing - I'm suffering mental torture but relate to the below
I don't think I have the courage to kill myself
When I think of doing it, I get scared. I'm 38 and a complete failure in every aspect of life. But because I can't get up the courage to end it, I'm just living in a way that will lead to dying quicker. My hope is that I'll die in my sleep of a heart attack or stroke or maybe pass out behind the wheel, something where it happens before I even know it, so I can't chicken out. I just want it to be over, but I don't have the guts to do anything about it. I'm dying a slow death, which I guess is the best I can expect.
I don't think I have the courage to kill myself
When I think of doing it, I get scared. I'm 38 and a complete failure in every aspect of life. But because I can't get up the courage to end it, I'm just living in a way that will lead to dying quicker. My hope is that I'll die in my sleep of a heart attack or stroke or maybe pass out behind the wheel, something where it happens before I even know it, so I can't chicken out. I just want it to be over, but I don't have the guts to do anything about it. I'm dying a slow death, which I guess is the best I can expect.