Venting A thread for updates regarding my situation :-] yay

[Cyber4ngel!]

Hiii everyone! As the title suggests, this is a thread about me and the situation im currently in.

Some of you know me, and some may not. For those who are familiar with my situation, just to recap, I'm currently homeless, i have a very abusive family, no money and ZERO BITCHES!!! :0 i wanted to do this thread to kinda keep everything in one place, also to avoid just filling SaSu with my little sad story lol, if i have something important to say or something that is not about this whole situation i will do a separate thread!!

Moving forward, I'll be posting here about the situation :]
I'll also link any previous threads for those interested in catching up. Thanks for being here!

1) https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/what-do-i-even-do-now-vent.186080/

2) https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-asap-i-have-a-cat-and-were-in-danger.187854/

3) https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/long-time-no-see-im-alive-sadly.194474/

i love all of you!!

Moving forward, I'll be posting here about the situation :]
I'll also link any previous threads for those interested in catching up. Thanks for being here!

Also look at my profile, i post little updates that are not long enough to make a thread
These are my latest updates:

Still alive sadly, currently in the streets, they kicked me out, I don't have my cat with me. Sorry for being inactive and sorry if im missing some of the art commissions, i will do them as soon as I have access to a computer again, i still have my cellphone for now. Manchitas is not safe and neither am i, but thats life i guess.. thank you to everyone who showed me support, i just couldn't reach my goal, found a job but only temporarily, i dont have it anymore because yeah.. i can't really work if i cant even shower, i charge my phone in McDonald's that are open 24 hs so sorry if im inactive and sorry again if i haven't done some of the comms, and also sorry for my english, im not using a translator today

I will not ctb yet, i dont really know why, i dont have my cat with me, I guess i am in denial, i still think i will find him eventually, but even then i dont really have a place to stay, i hope someday i will be able to rent an apartment and be at peace

I love all of you, I hope all of you are ok and if not i hope things get better for all of us, with or without ctb

17/02 !!

Hey everyone, just wanted to share a quick update: I'm still alive! I apologize for not being around much lately. My phone battery situation is a bit of a struggle, i can't always charge it, and tbh life has been very rough lately.

I really miss my cat. I have a tattoo of him on my leg, and every time I see it, it just reminds me of how much I miss him. I'm still in denial about his disappearance, i haven't even mentioned it to most of my friends because I just don't know how to cope without him. I feel like life has lost the little meaning it had

I just hope he's safe.

So, I'm currently still living on the streets, sometimes I crash at a friend's place and the next night at another friend's place.., and other nights I stay at a 24-hour McDonald's.

Thankfully, someone was kind enough to donate to me, and I'm so grateful for that. I'm using that money to get at least one or two meals a day, which is already more than what I had at my parents' house :P. I've managed to use a bit of that money for emergencies too, there is a cheap motel where i stay when i cant go anywhere and i need to use a shower or just sleep on a bed yk.. I can't do it a lot bc its like 15 - 20 dollars a night but it gets me out of bad situations when i need it

Everything feels really tough right now, and I honestly don't know what to do. I'm looking for a new job, and a few places have expressed interest, but i dont know if i can maintain a job without a stable place to sleep or shower, thats why i had to leave my last job

But even then, once the money I have left runs out, I dont really know what to do..

I have contacted homeless shelters but every single one i asked about was already full.. thats argentina for u i guess.....

As you might expect, my mental state isn't great. I'm exhausted both physically and emotionally. I have very few clothes now since most of them were tossed by my dad, and I'm just dealing with what I can carry in my backpack. Its hard to wash them and i hate being dirty..

But, you know, that's life sometimes.... I just had some empanadas, and they were goooooood

I just keep thinking about my cat, I don't know how to keep going without him. I really miss him.

My former boss mentioned he was going to help me out when I lost my job, specifically to help with rent for at least a month so I could get back on my feet and back to work. But when I reached out about it, he ghosted me. It's a bit of a letdown, even though I know it wasn't his responsibility.

If anyone feels like chatting tonight, I could really use some company. Im on my own tonight and It gets lonely here, zzz

As always, sorry for my bad English, i used a translator today though!!

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I'll watch this thread if you are going to update on here, are you gonna?

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

I'll watch this thread if you are going to update on here, are you gonna?

Hii sweetheart!! Yes i will, ill try to keep updating on here every time Im able to ♡ idk how often, but i will!! Thank you for always worrying about me

 

[sadalways]

I'll keep reading your updates too, your situation is really rough, i'm so sorry you have to go through that sending hugs

 

[Gangrel]

i'm glad you're still here and still alive, sending love

 

[Languish]

I know things will get better for you. It's hard now, but it will not always be like this. Keep your head up and keep moving forward.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Hii sweetheart!! Yes i will, ill try to keep updating on here every time Im able to ♡ idk how often, but i will!! Thank you for always worrying about me

Alright... If it would be easier I wouldn't mind sharing discord acc's! Your story just affects me greatly and I want to see your situation get better <3

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

Alright... If it would be easier I wouldn't mind sharing discord acc's! Your story just affects me greatly and I want to see your situation get better <3

Ofc!! I will PM u my discord acc!! Thank you again for caring so much about me, you have been worrying so much about me since the beginning <3 i really appreciate it
17/02 // Update of today is!! I'm alive, today I'll stay at the motel i mentioned, I have 200$ left for now, I ate a hamburger today, it was 4$ :) honestly pretty cheap!!! And it was good too, i had to buy toilet paper and shampoo today, I wanted to get some clothes but it's expensive afff, I'm worrying about what will i do once the money runs out but yk.. im trying to live one day at a time bc if not i will kms!! Tomorrow I'm going to hangout with a friend and I'll probably stay at his house yayyyy

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

19/02 // i dont really have the energy to write a lot today but im alive!! Today im going to give my resume to a restaurant i was recommended, they supposedly pay every week instead of every month and that would be better for short term necessities bc anyways there is no way i can afford rent by myself, im trying to find a roomate, I stayed at a friend's house last night :]

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

19/02 // i dont really have the energy to write a lot today but im alive!! Today im going to give my resume to a restaurant i was recommended, they supposedly pay every week instead of every month and that would be better for short term necessities bc anyways there is no way i can afford rent by myself, im trying to find a roomate, I stayed at a friend's house last night :]

hopefully you'll be able to secure the job <3