A way to say bye bye to my shi**y life

[letmeseethedeath]

Hi guys i'm back after a long time without phone and laptop. well, as i said in my first post months ago i have a lot of problems, and people jugde me. I have trichotillomania, a cancer in my kidney, gender dysphoria (i reject my body) and my family always treat me like i don't exist and they say " why you born? i prefer you die". I wanted to attend university but last year people laught at me because of my aspect, because of my way of being masculine and that hurts me, i'm not even able to go out of my home. i don't have friends anymore, no love, nothing, i pass all days in my bedroom thinking i want to end my stupid and useless life. i'm alone with my suicidal thoughts. I think i can kill myself with CO but i need a lot of informations. Is there anyone who can help me with CO? i need to know all. Also i wanted to end with Nembutal but i'm afraid of puke and other side effect. I'm afraid to not to die. also i tried to take a gun but here law is so seriuos. Please help me guys. Also, i really love you all, you are the family i never had.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Hi guys i'm back after a long time without phone and laptop. well, as i said in my first post months ago i have a lot of problems, and people jugde me. I have trichotillomania, a cancer in my kidney, gender dysphoria (i reject my body) and my family always treat me like i don't exist and they say " why you born? i prefer you die". I wanted to attend university but last year people laught at me because of my aspect, because of my way of being masculine and that hurts me, i'm not even able to go out of my home. i don't have friends anymore, no love, nothing, i pass all days in my bedroom thinking i want to end my stupid and useless life. i'm alone with my suicidal thoughts. I think i can kill myself with CO but i need a lot of informations. Is there anyone who can help me with CO? i need to know all. Also i wanted to end with Nembutal but i'm afraid of puke and other side effect. I'm afraid to not to die. also i tried to take a gun but here law is so seriuos. Please help me guys. Also, i really love you all, you are the family i never had.

Please please guys, i'll really appreciate your helps

 

[Sayo]

Have you read the Peaceful Pill chapter and the thread on CO? Those are good starting places.

The PPeH can be found in the resources thread. You might have to search for the CO thread. edit: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053/

With Nembutal, one typically takes a large dose of anti emetics to avoid vomiting.

I'm sorry, by the way. It sounds like there are things that would make you happy other than dying, but your present circumstances are unbearable and not conducive to getting better. I definitely don't see how anyone could be happy remaining with an abusive family, especially while trans or gnc. But I imagine that if you were able to change your circumstances you could feel differently, even with the dysphoria.

It's cruel that your family in effect brought you into the world and do not improve your passage through it.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Have you read the Peaceful Pill chapter and the thread on CO? Those are good starting places.

The PPeH can be found in the resources thread. You might have to search for the CO thread. edit: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053/

With Nembutal, one typically takes a large dose of anti emetics to avoid vomiting.

I'm sorry, by the way. It sounds like there are things that would make you happy other than dying, but your present circumstances are unbearable and not conducive to getting better. I definitely don't see how anyone could be happy remaining with an abusive family, especially while trans or gnc. But I imagine that if you were able to change your circumstances you could feel differently, even with the dysphoria.

It's cruel that your family in effect brought you into the world and do not improve your passage through it.

I thank you very much for answering me. where can I find the Peacefull Pill chapter and the thread on CO?
My problems are chronic pathologies and mental illnesses, and they weigh me like boulders, I seem to be crucified every day. surely if I could change my body I would live a little better, but I can not even look at myself in the mirror and leave the house. my family doesn't help me at all, they don't accept me, only feels contempt and shame towards me and all I want to do is to disappear from this useless land that only gave me suffering. I spend my days looking at the "normal" lives of others who can live a normal sexual life, have a loved one beside them, have friends, pursue their dreams and study at university without being bullied as it happened to me for 2 consecutive years and for this I had to leave the university. I thank you again, you make me feel at home despite having already died mentally.

 

[Candour]

Here is the thread on CO. Hope it helps. Sorry to hear about your situation. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053/page-5

 

[Sayo]

The Resources thread is at the top of the Sanctioned Suicide section and should have recent editions of the Peaceful Pill chapter.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Here is the thread on CO. Hope it helps. Sorry to hear about your situation. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053/page-5

thank you very much :3

 

[letmeseethedeath]

The Resources thread is at the top of the Sanctioned Suicide section and should have recent editions of the Peaceful Pill chapter.

thank you very much :3 also it says the editions doen't exist or is not available anymore :c

 

[ctoan]

this is all you need

https://8ch.net/suicide/res/36746.html