Absolutely must ctb, but have a great very supportive family

[heyismeman]

For me this is by far the worst fuckin delema. For me it's not even a question of should I, I pretty much need to ctb, since 11 for me it's been pure misery, no one knows this, my entire family thinks I'm the strongest, as I've never shown emotions to just about absolutely no person ever, and everyone in my family is incredibly depressed. My family loves me deeply, and the idea of then losing me to CTB I believe would utterly crush them, truly and utterly. How can I cope with this delema?

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot, I understand finding it dreadful to exist, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I'm sorry you have to suffer in this situation. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[cjt11203]

It's your decision to make. I know my death would sadden a few people. I will do what I can to minimize impact. I will leave all my assets to my sister and leave a note to clarify any confusion and kill any opportunities to shift blame.