Adult Children

[BrokeJoblessGenXer]

Hi,

I am not depressed but I️ am tired. I️'m tired of trying so hard to get through life and constantly having things not go my way. I️'m not helpless but I️ have ended up in a situation where I️ have almost no control of my destiny.

I️'ve had a good life, with great experiences and accomplishments but that has run its course. At 54 years old, a series of unfortunate events have left me marginally employed, living with my aging parents and nothing to look forward to. There is zero chance I️'ll ever get back to a point where I️ enjoy life, much less able to ever find happiness.

At this point I️'m just ready to be done. I️ want to just go away, without any fanfare and without leaving anyone with any feelings of guilt or responsibility.

My only problem is that I have a 19 year old daughter who has always relied on me for everything and I️ don't want to leave her. But I️ no longer have the means to support her and will soon be a burden to her.

I️ want to end it more than anything but I️ am paralyzed by the fear of what it might do to her. On the other hand, she's smart, beautiful and talented and will eventually be ok.

Living is miserable for me so when is it ok for me to finally do something for myself and CTB?

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I have 16 and 18 year old daughters. I lost my job and all of my money last year, so I can't even support myself at this point and I live with my parents. It's really hard to be a parent in such a position. I really wanted to CTB this December, but I decided to hold on for the sake of the girls through the holidays. Now I'm finding it difficult to CTB because of the impact on my familly. My older daughter just messaged me to say she's concerned about me, it's so heartbreaking to chat with her when I know I have no hope for recovery and I just want to die.