Venting Advice on stopping fixating on suicide

[FaultyCepheus]

I cant stop myself from thinking about suicide. Every second every day. I cant believe im getting bad again to be honest and ive always had these thoughts but now its the only thing i think about. I wish there was an easy way out, im thinking about hanging myself at an abandoned barn near me mainly. Although part of me feel better when im thinking of dying i know its feeding my depression, i can barely wash myself let alone think about leaving the house right now. Does anyone have any advice for good distractions. I like my games, music and photography but it hasnt been helping me recently.

 

[soapgoat]

What games do you like I'm really into photography too. Isolation is going to make your mind focus on it even harder but I'm sure that's obvious. Showering is difficult I remember I'd do it scarsely and it got real bad in the summer. Do small things when you can. Brushing your teeth is good and getting out of bed to clean your room is a great accomplishment. You'll feel like shit in the moment but maybe just maybe you can think back with satisfaction later in the day even for a bit. I like to juggle a soccer ball around my room. anhedonia kicks in but movement can combat it. I might fall asleep on the floor for 3 hour but when it wears off I'll be proud. Try and message others about dumb shit so the loneliness doesn't creep In. If you can just get out of bed and try to do push ups or plank for a bit. Get swole so you can beat up suicidality just making an attempt is a big win. When your at rock bottom its tempting to doom scrool on here but try to avoid it. I know this is basically common sense but try your best and the thoughts might cease. If you own a rope dont take it out or keep it out of sight. The option might bring on more thoughts. Lmk if this helps

 

[FaultyCepheus]

What games do you like I'm really into photography too. Isolation is going to make your mind focus on it even harder but I'm sure that's obvious. Showering is difficult I remember I'd do it scarsely and it got real bad in the summer. Do small things when you can. Brushing your teeth is good and getting out of bed to clean your room is a great accomplishment. You'll feel like shit in the moment but maybe just maybe you can think back with satisfaction later in the day even for a bit. I like to juggle a soccer ball around my room. anhedonia kicks in but movement can combat it. I might fall asleep on the floor for 3 hour but when it wears off I'll be proud. Try and message others about dumb shit so the loneliness doesn't creep In. If you can just get out of bed and try to do push ups or plank for a bit. Get swole so you can beat up suicidality just making an attempt is a big win. When your at rock bottom its tempting to doom scrool on here but try to avoid it. I know this is basically common sense but try your best and the thoughts might cease. If you own a rope dont take it out or keep it out of sight. The option might bring on more thoughts. Lmk if this helps

Im really into story games like detroit become human, red dead redemption, life is strange etc. Thank you for your advice, i do catch myself doomscrolling on here for hours which i need to stop, im gonna try replace it with drawing or something creative. Luckily i do have a friend who i am very close with he can tell a bit that im not in a good headspace so we are on call for most of the day even if i cant get up and go see him.
thank you

 

[lionetta12]

I cant stop myself from thinking about suicide. Every second every day. I cant believe im getting bad again to be honest and ive always had these thoughts but now its the only thing i think about. I wish there was an easy way out, im thinking about hanging myself at an abandoned barn near me mainly. Although part of me feel better when im thinking of dying i know its feeding my depression, i can barely wash myself let alone think about leaving the house right now. Does anyone have any advice for good distractions. I like my games, music and photography but it hasnt been helping me recently.

Certain meds might work. I don't have any advice beside that since I have not found anything that removes suicidal thoughts beside being pregnant. There's no hobby or interests that keep those thoughs away for me.