BecomingDiamond
"Happiness isn't a Luxury." -C
- Sep 25, 2024
- 16
Heya, it's been a while, in my last few posts, I mentioned I was going through a housing crisis, and I've been trying so much to help with finding means of paying rent to finding a house, but it's come down to the wire as now I might have to move in with my father, who molested me when I was 19 due to not spending time with him when I was a child.
He's been taking and holding my sisters money hostage for months, I don't know if he is fucking stupid or something to not realize that we couldn't pay the rent, but he's put us in this situation, and I am not certain that I may end my life soon before this happens, because unrealistically there's no way we'll find a house by the end of the month, and I don't want to be homeless on the streets and maybe molested there as well, or with this cocksucking bastard who will still molest me and I have no comfort from my dog.
I was thinking of also ctb with my dog, since I know no one will take care of him when I'm gone. But I'm not really sure on how.
I am not in a good headspace and I know that ctb is something that needs to be planned. But I'm desperate, and I'm scared.. And I fucking hate my future... I'm just venting right now, but I don't know anymore..
He's been taking and holding my sisters money hostage for months, I don't know if he is fucking stupid or something to not realize that we couldn't pay the rent, but he's put us in this situation, and I am not certain that I may end my life soon before this happens, because unrealistically there's no way we'll find a house by the end of the month, and I don't want to be homeless on the streets and maybe molested there as well, or with this cocksucking bastard who will still molest me and I have no comfort from my dog.
I was thinking of also ctb with my dog, since I know no one will take care of him when I'm gone. But I'm not really sure on how.
I am not in a good headspace and I know that ctb is something that needs to be planned. But I'm desperate, and I'm scared.. And I fucking hate my future... I'm just venting right now, but I don't know anymore..