nico_wren
Maggot (they/them)
- Feb 14, 2023
- 57
It's been a long time since I've posted here. I attempted around a year ago, and I've been in and out of the hospital since. I'm now "good to go" by their standards with a million pills I'll never remember to take, but I feel so much worse than before. My boyfriend broke up with me, my friends left me, and I just feel so lonely. Part of me wants to try again, but I'm scared I'll fail again and what's worse is I'd definitely lose my job. So what would I even have to live for? I keep joking that I will just become a drug addict and live it up like that until I pass, but the joke becomes more and more real each day.