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It's a slow fade
Dec 10, 2023
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Well I just completely lost control for a little bit.
A fast flash .

Anyway I yelled at someone.
I'm definitely wrong for doing that .

Not completely wrong for addressing the topic though.

But umm it was over stuff that should be a roommate conversation not a yelling match.

Then I sliced the rest of this mess into my skin.

Also throughout this I'm crying or almost crying.

I literally can't think straight for these few minutes.

Unfortunately now that I can the damage is already done.



Now I'm still sad .
I'm a bit shocked at myself.
And I feel something bad that I feel better.
I know that's just that I actually released some of the shit instead of it all being buried.


I've processed some of why I reacted the way I did


Yet two questions remain.

How do I do something other than blow up or stuff it down ?


And any tricks for dealing with cutting ?

I'm no stranger to cutting .
My scars are 5- 7 inches long.

But I went deeper than ever before.

Honestly I'm a little worried about it right now .
I can't seek medical help so I'm going with cleaning it up , treating with triple antibiotic , bandaid and asking about it here.

My instinct says I'll be okay but possibly stopped just short of mandatory stitches.

So I guess I'm hoping for someone to care and for some suggestions.
 
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