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curiousbeing

I tried my best
Dec 18, 2022
147
Update: I edited my post, wrote more details as replies

My method: deodorant inhaling and drowning.

Air temperature: between 5-14C

I mean, I will enter sea, and I will inhale deodorant to lose my consciousness faster, possibly in 15 seconds after inhaling. By inhaling, I mean, I will hyperventilate, hold my breath, and after urge to breathe becomes stronger, inhale deodorant sprayed to /through napkins/clothes (my nose plugged), and then again hold my breath, so deodorant gasses can replace oxygen, without new oxygen entering my lungs through my mouth or nose. Deodorant spraying, which triggers asphyxiation, replaces suffocation / trying to hold breath / choking myself by swallowing napkins

What If deodorant inhaling fails:

I have two alternate plans, if deodorant inhaling fails to make me unconscious:

Plan 1. If I can, I will try to hyperventilate as much as I can, dive inside water and use my physical energy as much as I can to deplete all remaining oxygen reserves in my body. Hopefully this will make me unconscious

Plan 2. If both deodorant inhaling fails and I can't dive inside sea because it's just too cold, I will wait until hypothermia knocks me out (maybe suddenly and instantly I will have cardiac arrest, or maybe after 15 minutes, maybe after 45 minutes I will experience cold shock).


That's it. I won't suffocate, I won't cut myself. Drowning itself at evening, with cold air, is enough (if deodorants work, they will also be effective with their harmful effects to make me ctb faster, they can trigger heart attack)
One advantage winter has over summer is cold temperature. In summer, I can enter sea, and never find courage to drown myself, especially if deodorant inhaling and shallow water blackout fail to make me unconscious. But in this case, cold temperature will help me lose consciousness and be drowned

Cold temperature slows down destructive brain processes during drowning, slows down need for oxygen of the body (some people survive drowning for 30 minutes, thanks to hypothermia triggering reduced oxygen needs of brain). This is its major weakness. But it can also cause instants cardiac arrest, organ failure after some time passes
Feel free to write replies, thanks for reading my post
 
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Hope your plan all goes well. See you at the other side.
 
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curiousbeing

I tried my best
Dec 18, 2022
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Hope your plan all goes well. See you at the other side.
Thank you. I tried my best, researched everything, considered every scenario.
By the way, just in case, I will also take painkillers. Suddenly I may have headache, i frequently experience headaches
here is hypothermia chart

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My deodorant contains:

Butane, isobutane, propane, alcohol denat, parfum, cyclopentasiloxane, isopropyl myristate, linalool, limonene, citronellol, citral. Unfortunately, alcohol denat and parfum are irritants, but I can handle them irritating me

When it comes to inhalation, searching posts by @Intoxicated helped me sooo much.
Unfortunately, until ctb, I can't test effectiveness of deodorant. I may suddenly trigger heart attack or brain damage in myself. I don't know how effective will it be, but I will use deodorant during ctb
In my previous posts, I was very confused, not confident, scared. But now, I just feel very confident. This method will work

And just in case, I am somehow found, probably they will see i am almost frozen, assume I am dead. Lazy, scared Doctors won't repeatedly do CPR to revive me.

But assuming they somehow find me at night, even bring me back to life, probably I will be in coma for one week, and because I didn't cut my artery or veins, effects and consequences of my ctb will eventually be healed more or less, I believe. But i will do my best to be successful and ctb. Probably i won't be found whole night and until midday next day, if boats start searching for me

Say, I ctb on 5:00 PM. I will have time until 5:00 PM next day to be found, considering If I will be lost in sea
My another fear is that waves will push my body to beach and it will be easily seen in beach

But, wild animals may come and eat it

or

Waves may push it to deeper and deeper sea

or

I will use a backpack, filled with lots of sand. I hope backpack will pin me down in one point at sea and my body won't move
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best, I hope you find peace from suffering.
 
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curiousbeing

I tried my best
Dec 18, 2022
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I wish you the best, I hope you find peace from suffering.
Thank you for your reply. Your replies to my posts help me feel better. In the past, I was seeking validation and was unsure but now I am confident in my method.

I feel calm and quiet, starting from yesterday, finally I have a method that I really like.
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Follow your heart, only ctb if you know it's time
Aug 10, 2021
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Good luck. I wonder, would this be possible to do with roll-on deo as well?
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Are you still here? Regardless of what you do, I hope you find peace soon. Also, out of curiosity, how do you plan on entering the sea? Would you jump in from a point or would you just go to a shore and swim as far away as possible?
 
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curiousbeing

I tried my best
Dec 18, 2022
147
Are you still here? Regardless of what you do, I hope you find peace soon. Also, out of curiosity, how do you plan on entering the sea? Would you jump in from a point or would you just go to a shore and swim as far away as possible?
I will simply walk into sea, as deep as I can. I can't swim. Maybe I will be able to reach deepness where sea is above mu legs. If coldness is too much and my muscles start paralyzing due to hypothermia , I will inhale gas.
Good luck. I wonder, would this be possible to do with roll-on deo as well?
I don't know. I will try to find R-134a gas tank and inhale it. It's much large than deodorant
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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The problem I sea (pun intended!) with your plan is that inhalants only work until you stop inhaling them. You will quickly snap out of it when you're drowning, It (to me) would be slow torture.
Also, if you can't swim how will you get far enough out to drown?
I'm not criticizing your method or your right to attempt this act. I just don't know how it can actually succeed.
I hope I'm wrong, and that your plan works. I just don't see how it can.
Peace & love to you! 🤗🌹💔
 
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curiousbeing

I tried my best
Dec 18, 2022
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The problem I sea (pun intended!) with your plan is that inhalants only work until you stop inhaling them. You will quickly snap out of it when you're drowning, It (to me) would be slow torture.
Also, if you can't swim how will you get far enough out to drown?
I'm not criticizing your method or your right to attempt this act. I just don't know how it can actually succeed.
I hope I'm wrong, and that your plan works. I just don't see how it can.
Peace & love to you! 🤗🌹💔
Lungs will be full of gas such as R-134a. During drowning, all those gases won't be able to suddenly leave lungs without first aid help. I can't swim, but i am sure when i am submerged in water that's as deep as my chest in 3C temperature, I will be unconscious, potentially some water already in my lungs. My lungs will have nothing but CO2, water and R-134a gas.
The problem I sea (pun intended!) with your plan is that inhalants only work until you stop inhaling them. You will quickly snap out of it when you're drowning, It (to me) would be slow torture.
Also, if you can't swim how will you get far enough out to drown?
I'm not criticizing your method or your right to attempt this act. I just don't know how it can actually succeed.
I hope I'm wrong, and that your plan works. I just don't see how it can.
Peace & love to you! 🤗🌹💔
R-134a is more dense than oxygen. I hope that it won't just fully leave lungs as quickly as possible. Hypothermia will also help me lose consciousness. I hope i will be drowned, even if waves send my body to shore, I won't be found for at least 4 hours. I hope it will be enough.

Drowned people can't automatically breathe. They need to be helped to start breathing.

I hope chatgpt is correct
 
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melonpan

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Sep 9, 2024
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Hope the end isn't painful and you can finally find peace, if you choose to not go with your plan, I hope you find something in life you don't mind living for.
 
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