Story Almost Started Crying in Lecture

[UnnervedCompany]

The lecturer was speaking about some medical stuff blah blah unrelated. The lecturer pulled a podcast about a woman who endured extreme self hate as an indigenous person due to her culture being taken away when she was a child. That part did not resonate with me but when she said that she had extreme self hatred for who she was and needed to go on a healing journey reminded me of my problem with extreme self hatred and internalized homophobia. Then my breathing in class went to extreme levels and I had to leave immediately because I did not want to cry in front of people. I hate that my issue is so fucking pathetic its literally "I just hate myself cause I like men" it makes me feel like such a worthless soul because there are people with much more severe issues yet I have the audacity to complain. I don't deserve anyone to respect me nor do I deserve to respect myself with how pitiful I am. My parents should disown me like they said they will do if they find out any of their children are gay.

 

[TANETS]

Would you mind naming the podcast for me? I'm currently experiencing a lot of self hate and depression over my identity too. I swear there is nothing more uncomfortable about being forced to listen to triggering topics in class.

 

[UnnervedCompany]

I can't find it since it is not on the syllabus the teacher just pulled it. It's not really a podcast sorry about that it's just an interview

Would you mind naming the podcast for me? I'm currently experiencing a lot of self hate and depression over my identity too. I swear there is nothing more uncomfortable about being forced to listen to triggering topics in class.

I can't find it cause it's not in the syllabus I'm sorry. I am fine watching triggering topics in class I have participated in class discussions worse than that it's just that interview resonated too much with my own issue.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Having issues with accepting your sexuality isn't pathetic and doesn't make you worthless. Your issues are valid and there are a lot of people out there who are struggling just as much as you are right now. At the end of the day, we still live in a world that pushes the heteronormativity onto us at every waking moment, so it makes sense that you would have issues with accepting your sexuality. There is nothing to be ashamed of. There will always be someone else out there who has it worse than you but that doesn't make your problems any less valid.