Lack-of-Everything
Who the heck knows
- Nov 17, 2024
- 20
Hi everyone,
I'm looking to make friends here and find a CTB partner, so I thought I'd post a not-so-little introduction. Feel free to skip to the TLDR.
I am 37 year old autistic, ADHD, brain damaged, learning disabled and chronically ill woman. My immediate family, including my dog, died in February, leaving me orphaned, and with no support structure.
Following my family's death, my boyfriend and friends dropped me for being "too needy". I was left alone and vulnerable, and so, in my desperation, I fell prey to unscrupulous relatives who forced me to move abroad to live with them, where they subjected me to a campaign of sexual, emotional, physical, and financial abuse. They stole my and my family's possessions, and are continuing to abuse me financially through the legal system. As they live in a different country, I am unable to press charges against them.
Due to my disabilities I have never been able to survive independently, and my prospects are bleak. With no inheritance to speak of, I am resigned to surviving on meagre state benefits for the rest of my life, which do not enable me to purchase the daily support I need. To boot, the family home, where I'm currently living, is being repossessed, so homelessness is looming.
Every day is sheer, unremitting misery. I am traumatised, in constant psychological and emotional pain from grief and near total isolation, stressed to the hilt from increasing financial debt and the impending homelessness, and frequent intense physical pain and fatigue from various chronic illnesses. I have become prematurely peri-menopausal, developed partial alopecia and a severe junk food addiction, leading to a 36kg (and counting) weight gain.
Which leads me here. The problem is, though I'm desperate to CTB, I'm too scared to attempt it alone in case it goes wrong. So, if anyone is looking for a CTB partner, please reply to this post. I can travel.
TLDR:
Neurodivergent, chronically ill woman, lost family in February. No support, no inheritance, and facing homelessness. Suffered multiple forms of abuse by remaining relatives. Seeking partner to CTB with.
I'm looking to make friends here and find a CTB partner, so I thought I'd post a not-so-little introduction. Feel free to skip to the TLDR.
I am 37 year old autistic, ADHD, brain damaged, learning disabled and chronically ill woman. My immediate family, including my dog, died in February, leaving me orphaned, and with no support structure.
Following my family's death, my boyfriend and friends dropped me for being "too needy". I was left alone and vulnerable, and so, in my desperation, I fell prey to unscrupulous relatives who forced me to move abroad to live with them, where they subjected me to a campaign of sexual, emotional, physical, and financial abuse. They stole my and my family's possessions, and are continuing to abuse me financially through the legal system. As they live in a different country, I am unable to press charges against them.
Due to my disabilities I have never been able to survive independently, and my prospects are bleak. With no inheritance to speak of, I am resigned to surviving on meagre state benefits for the rest of my life, which do not enable me to purchase the daily support I need. To boot, the family home, where I'm currently living, is being repossessed, so homelessness is looming.
Every day is sheer, unremitting misery. I am traumatised, in constant psychological and emotional pain from grief and near total isolation, stressed to the hilt from increasing financial debt and the impending homelessness, and frequent intense physical pain and fatigue from various chronic illnesses. I have become prematurely peri-menopausal, developed partial alopecia and a severe junk food addiction, leading to a 36kg (and counting) weight gain.
Which leads me here. The problem is, though I'm desperate to CTB, I'm too scared to attempt it alone in case it goes wrong. So, if anyone is looking for a CTB partner, please reply to this post. I can travel.
TLDR:
Neurodivergent, chronically ill woman, lost family in February. No support, no inheritance, and facing homelessness. Suffered multiple forms of abuse by remaining relatives. Seeking partner to CTB with.
