I ready to die man. Its just its hard being in treatment with a therapist thats I trust, who says recovery is possible. Fuck man. What if thats not true. I dont feel like Im mentally strong enough to survive
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No, wanting to hope for better outcomes doesn't make you naive, it makes you human.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
It's not naive if you can consider it... Give it a few months to see if anything changes?
Hopeless_soul
Soon
- Jan 3, 2019
- 502
As other people have said, you are not naive at all. Give it a try, wait a little. I know how hard it is to live without thinking you are going to die for real: that becomes your mantra. It's scary to start living otherwise. But why not giving it a try? I wish you good luck.
If there's something left that you want to do, you should put every effort you can into doing it.
When I was 19, I wanted to kill myself. But I still had things I wanted to prove. Now at 36, I've proven it all and I'm ready to die. It's just over is all. Life after now is too long. I'm aging and it's just not worth a damn at this point. Diminished quality everything. You can't buy back your 20s with all the money in the world.
No wife, no kids. It's over. But if you're still young, you've got a few good years left to live.
When I was 19, I wanted to kill myself. But I still had things I wanted to prove. Now at 36, I've proven it all and I'm ready to die. It's just over is all. Life after now is too long. I'm aging and it's just not worth a damn at this point. Diminished quality everything. You can't buy back your 20s with all the money in the world.
No wife, no kids. It's over. But if you're still young, you've got a few good years left to live.
DrownedOctopus
Experienced
- Mar 2, 2019
- 246
It's certainly not naive. It's possible with work and dedication for a lot of people. Exhaust all available resources before deciding if it's something you tjink you can achieve or not.
There are always going to be days you struggle through, don't let it discourage you if living a life you feel at peace with is what you really want.
What works for others may not work for you, sometimes it takes a lot of trial and error.
It's up to you, in the end, to decide if living is right for you or the other way around. I just suggest doing your best to have more peace with living before you decide death is the best option for you.
There are always going to be days you struggle through, don't let it discourage you if living a life you feel at peace with is what you really want.
What works for others may not work for you, sometimes it takes a lot of trial and error.
It's up to you, in the end, to decide if living is right for you or the other way around. I just suggest doing your best to have more peace with living before you decide death is the best option for you.
Im currently 22. So far Ive missed out on ages 12-to now. Its hard seeing myself living life when I havent been able to do it as a teen (I was mute, extreme anxiety, and depression). I did take my first trip recently though..I went to New York. Ive always wanted to go to a beach so I guess I could aim for that?
silentsinger
Experienced
- Mar 1, 2019
- 261
I don't think you are naïve at all. I have had many, many times in my life where I have hoped things would get better. In the past they often have but it has been far too long now and I know I don't have anything to cling onto. It is natural to hope things will get better and I really hope that for your sake they will get better. Hopelessness is pretty terrifying.
silentsinger
Experienced
- Mar 1, 2019
- 261
I should take my own advice here but if you believe they can get better then I'm with you. It is a positive thought and something that you can fight for. You are strong and it makes you an even stronger person because you are able to discuss it. x
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Thank you, that means a lot. I wish I could think of something better to say back to you...but I truly do appreciate what you said
silentsinger
Experienced
- Mar 1, 2019
- 261
You don't need to say anything at all. I'm just really glad that it meant something to you and i'll be thinking of you.
reveriewong
Member
- Feb 22, 2019
- 61
No, you're not naive for thinking that things could get better.
If you make good choices, then most likely, things will get better. At least one part of your life--even if it's a very small part--will improve, and then gradually, as you make more good choices, other parts of your life will get better as well.
You have a therapist that you trust. That's already a good choice. Keep making more of them! Your therapist can work with you to offer you some guidance in making good decisions as well.
If you make good choices, then most likely, things will get better. At least one part of your life--even if it's a very small part--will improve, and then gradually, as you make more good choices, other parts of your life will get better as well.
You have a therapist that you trust. That's already a good choice. Keep making more of them! Your therapist can work with you to offer you some guidance in making good decisions as well.
Samuel
Wise
- Apr 25, 2018
- 243
Ipassbutter
Member
- Feb 24, 2019
- 49
Here's my take for what it's worth. I think 'recovery' is a subjective term. Is someone who is be stable for twenty years and then wakes up one day and goes into a two year in horrible depression 'cured'?
On good days I'll think that life has been great for the past year. On bad days I'll think that the same past year had been a living nightmare. It's all relative and the terminology becomes very subjective.
You need to ask yourself - what does a realistic recovery look like? Would 'recovery' be squeezing out a 'good' ten years out of your entire life?
I'm 41 and have been dealing with this shit since I was 7. There are times when I wish I had killed myself 20 years ago and other times I thank myself for not. It's so subjective. I'm sorry for your pain.
On good days I'll think that life has been great for the past year. On bad days I'll think that the same past year had been a living nightmare. It's all relative and the terminology becomes very subjective.
You need to ask yourself - what does a realistic recovery look like? Would 'recovery' be squeezing out a 'good' ten years out of your entire life?
I'm 41 and have been dealing with this shit since I was 7. There are times when I wish I had killed myself 20 years ago and other times I thank myself for not. It's so subjective. I'm sorry for your pain.
