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olumlazim
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- Apr 2, 2025
- 19
They were going so fast with the loud siren. I thought about what my family would be going through after my suicide but never what would happen to me. I just thought I would be dead and nothing after that.
We live in a downtown area, as the loud siren approaches almost all of my neighbors would open the curtains and look, trying to take a peek of what's going on. The paramedics would get in our home and come to the room I did it. They would see my blue lips, fingertips. They would check my pulse, maybe do CPR? Or would they do it after taking me to the ambulance? I hope when carrying my body to the ambulance, they would cover it up. I don't want my body to be seen in that condition.I know there is a 45 minute mandatory heart message rule but would that apply to me if I had taken SN and had no pulse whatsoever? As SN poisoning is not a common suicide method in my country, I wonder if it would be the first time a healthcare worker's seeing it. I wonder if they somehow revive me, what would be the first thought I'd have when I wake up. I wonder if my neighbors would guess that it was a suicide. So many questions.
What would be the case in your condition?
We live in a downtown area, as the loud siren approaches almost all of my neighbors would open the curtains and look, trying to take a peek of what's going on. The paramedics would get in our home and come to the room I did it. They would see my blue lips, fingertips. They would check my pulse, maybe do CPR? Or would they do it after taking me to the ambulance? I hope when carrying my body to the ambulance, they would cover it up. I don't want my body to be seen in that condition.I know there is a 45 minute mandatory heart message rule but would that apply to me if I had taken SN and had no pulse whatsoever? As SN poisoning is not a common suicide method in my country, I wonder if it would be the first time a healthcare worker's seeing it. I wonder if they somehow revive me, what would be the first thought I'd have when I wake up. I wonder if my neighbors would guess that it was a suicide. So many questions.
What would be the case in your condition?