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Empty RN

Empty RN

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Oct 25, 2018
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The flowers are deadly? Has anyone CTB using this method or thought of it?
 
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According to Wikipedia:
"Effects of ingestion can include paralysis of smooth muscles, confusion, tachycardia, dry mouth, diarrhea, migraine headaches, visual and auditory hallucinations, mydriasis, rapid onset cycloplegia, and death.

The hallucinogenic effects of Brugmansia were described in the journal Pathology as "terrifying rather than pleasurable". The author Christina Pratt, in An Encyclopedia of Shamanism, says that "Brugmansia induces a powerful trance with violent and unpleasant effects, sickening after effects, and at times temporary insanity".These hallucinations are often characterized by complete loss of awareness that one is hallucinating, disconnection from reality, and amnesia of the episode, such as one example reported in Psychiatry and Clinical Neuroscience of a young man who amputated his own penis and tongue after drinking only 1 cup of Brugmansia tea."
 
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Empty RN

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Oct 25, 2018
107
yikes nothing sounds peaceful. Growing up, my Dad grew a ton of these and mentioned how deadly they were
 
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yikes nothing sounds peaceful. Growing up, my Dad grew a ton of these and mentioned how deadly they were
Most deaths from plant toxicity sounds incredibly painful from what I read. Haven't found one that offers a peaceful death similar to something like Nembutal.
 
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Empty RN

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Oct 25, 2018
107
Nembutal it is. I just fear the taste. When I work next I'll bring a syringe home to taste it for myself and see what it's like
 
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Idk...man...like...dude....
Swallowing a trumpet and shit man....
....I dunno bro....Sounds like a bad idea to me....
...but you know...you do you man...
 
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Nembutal it is. I just fear the taste. When I work next I'll bring a syringe home to taste it for myself and see what it's like
You got access to Nembutal?
 
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Empty RN

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Oct 25, 2018
107
Idk...man...like...dude....
Swallowing a trumpet and shit man....
....I dunno bro....Sounds like a bad idea to me....
...but you know...you do you man...
It's a plant, but won't be the method for me. I was just thinking about it but didn't know how awful the SE were. Not a way for anyone to go
 
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Yes, I've had it for two weeks now
Oh man! Liquid gold! Nembutal is my dream drug but giving my circumstances I'll never be able to get it. I heard it's pretty damn bitter. What I would do is drink it while holding my nose. Then put a mint in my mouth or chew on something sweet. Also take anti-Nausua meds beforehand.

Nothing taste more bitter than life.
 
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Empty RN

Student
Oct 25, 2018
107
Oh man! Liquid gold! Nembutal is my dream drug but giving my circumstances I'll never be able to get it. I heard it's pretty damn bitter. What I would do is drink it while holding my nose. Then put a mint in my mouth or chew on something sweet. Also take anti-Nausua meds beforehand.

Nothing taste more bitter than life.
Touche!
Why won't you be able to get it? Where do you live? I live in the USA and within two days of it being shipped I received it. I've just read a lot of others' experiences with how putrid it is. Life for me just feels aimless and pointless. I don't see it that way for everyone but for me it just feels mundane.
 
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Touche!
Why won't you be able to get it? Where do you live? I live in the USA and within two days of it being shipped I received it. I've just read a lot of others' experiences with how putrid it is. Life for me just feels aimless and pointless. I don't see it that way for everyone but for me it just feels mundane.
My aunt is my representative payee due to me being on SSI despite not having an intellectual disability. It was the judges choice. If she helped me get N she would get into legal trouble because my money is tied to her bank account. Fucking sucks.
 
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Empty RN

Student
Oct 25, 2018
107
My aunt is my representative payee due to me being on SSI despite not having an intellectual disability. It was the judges choice. If she helped me get N she would get into legal trouble because my money is tied into her bank account. Fucking sucks.
Wow that's rough. Do you live in the US? Perhaps you could ask for money here and there for miscellaneous things and then purchase it after a while without her knowing?
 
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Wow that's rough. Do you live in the US? Perhaps you could ask for money here and there for miscellaneous things and then purchase it after a while without her knowing?
Thanks for understanding. I thought about that because I am willing to pay pretty much anything as long as my aunt is safeguarded legally. According to everyone, I'll have to buy N using cryptocurrency which means it has to be done though a bank account that I am not even allowed to have.

I could get one if I got off SSI but then I'd be screwed for money. All these conundrums!
 
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Empty RN

Student
Oct 25, 2018
107
Thanks for understanding. I thought about that because I am willing to pay pretty much anything as long as my aunt is safeguarded legally. According to everyone, I'll have to buy N using cryptocurrency which means it has to be done though a bank account that I am not even allowed to have.

I could get one if I got off SSI but then I'd be screwed for money. All these conundrums!
What about if you got the money and then got a prepaid visa card? That could work? I used xoom by paypal to pay for mine and they accepted credit cards. You could try that? If the taste isn't that bad, it seems like the best option to CTB. Before I found these online sites I learned of N but couldn't find a place to buy it. SS has been such a tremendous help in putting the pieces together and figuring it out. If there was a way I could help out your situation I would in a heartbeat.
 
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What about if you got the money and then got a prepaid visa card? That could work? I used xoom by paypal to pay for mine and they accepted credit cards. You could try that? If the taste isn't that bad, it seems like the best option to CTB. Before I found these online sites I learned of N but couldn't find a place to buy it. SS has been such a tremendous help in putting the pieces together and figuring it out. If there was a way I could help out your situation I would in a heartbeat.
Thank you so much! Unfortunately I am not even allowed to have credit cards. It's very embarrassing because I am a fairly intelligent guy who knows how to handle money. Maybe the judge made the decision based off the fact that I never had a job. The only thing I am allowed to have is gift cards.
 
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Empty RN

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What about a prepaid visa giftcard?
 
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What about a prepaid visa giftcard?
I will have to check up on that. I know I am not allowed to have a Visa card. My guess is that it also covers prepaid. How do I get a prepaid Visa card without my aunts bank account being involved?

I am allowed to get gift cards but it can't be a credit card.
 
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Empty RN

Student
Oct 25, 2018
107
You can purchase them at most supercenter stores like walmart, target etc. You wouldn't need your aunt at all, just the cash money she gave you and thought it was for something else. I would try this if I were in your situation. Strange they don't want you to have money? Can I ask why? If that's too personal I understand just curious.
 
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You can purchase them at most supercenter stores like walmart, target etc. You wouldn't need your aunt at all, just the cash money she gave you and thought it was for something else. I would try this if I were in your situation. Strange they don't want you to have money? Can I ask why? If that's too personal I understand just curious.
Thank you so much. That sounds like a great idea.

Well my aunt gives me all the hard cash I want. The judge had no tangible reason for declaring that I needed a payee. I did have two choices - my aunt or the state. I damn sure wasn't gonna let the state control my finances. Talk about mixed emotions that day. Relief that I finally got SSI yet defeated/humiliated that I had to be treated like a child with an allowance. No credit cards, no bank accounts etc is just bullshit.
 
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Empty RN

Student
Oct 25, 2018
107
Glad it's your aunt who is there for you and even more that you have access to money. Keep me posted on how this works out for you I really hope it does - I think it should I don't see any reason why it wouldn't. Probably safer than having a bank account anyway since these cards aren't traceable back to you
 
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Glad it's your aunt who is there for you and even more that you have access to money. Keep me posted on how this works out for you I really hope it does - I think it should I don't see any reason why it wouldn't. Probably safer than having a bank account anyway since these cards aren't traceable back to you
Thank you so very much for all your advice and understanding. I'll see what I can do and I'll defiantly keep you posted.
 
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Empty RN

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Oct 25, 2018
107
Sounds fantastic I'll be hoping for you! We all deserve a peaceful way out
 
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worldexploder

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Sounds fantastic I'll be hoping for you! We all deserve a peaceful way out
Thank you so much. I don't want to get to the point to were I'm forced to use an undesirable method.
 
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Jai

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Sep 23, 2018
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According to Wikipedia:
"Effects of ingestion can include paralysis of smooth muscles, confusion, tachycardia, dry mouth, diarrhea, migraine headaches, visual and auditory hallucinations, mydriasis, rapid onset cycloplegia, and death.

The hallucinogenic effects of Brugmansia were described in the journal Pathology as "terrifying rather than pleasurable". The author Christina Pratt, in An Encyclopedia of Shamanism, says that "Brugmansia induces a powerful trance with violent and unpleasant effects, sickening after effects, and at times temporary insanity".These hallucinations are often characterized by complete loss of awareness that one is hallucinating, disconnection from reality, and amnesia of the episode, such as one example reported in Psychiatry and Clinical Neuroscience of a young man who amputated his own penis and tongue after drinking only 1 cup of Brugmansia tea."
Wow amputated his pens that must off been some trip man totally left the planet that's brutal
 
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Finallyhere

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Oct 30, 2018
139
I considered this but the hallucinations seem too intense
 
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Nov 2, 2018
285
@Empty RN - I'd be really grateful if you could let us know how it tastes, that is something I have been worried about too (only a bit, I'm drinking it no matter what!).

Also I'd be intrigued as to how you ordered it and had it delivered to you in the US... maybe you could PM me if you don't want to post here and risk exposing a source to the feds.
 
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jizz676

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136
Wow amputated his pens that must off been some trip man totally left the planet that's brutal
lol very strange...but I dont think everybody would have same intense hallucinations
 
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