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Azizw126

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Oct 29, 2019
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Hi all,
Recently i developed a serious anger issues, i feel furious and irritated all the time.
My personality has changed from person who never said NO to people to a person who reject them all the time.
I hate most of my friends (well if they deserve to be called friends) , i hate them for taking advantage of me.
Today i just stood up and yelled enough is enough.
People who pretend to understand me and my mental condition now they are going away. I don't care and it feels good tbh.
Reaching a stage when you can say out loud "fu..k the world and fu.. K people is like living in heaven.
Has anyone felt this way after significant personality change?
 
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Life sucks

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Apr 18, 2018
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I be very angry also (although sometimes I can be the exact opposite). In the last years, I got much more and more angry, its because of the pressure of life and how unfair it is. Too much to handle so anger is not abnormal. However, I'm trying to reduce it because it self destructs, I got angry the last time and the damage is still not going.
Try to avoid anything that make you angry and cool yourself
 
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Azizw126

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Oct 29, 2019
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It's not bothering me and I'm not complaining about it. It's not self destruction When i have this pleasure of revenge lust and hurt the individuals' feelings very bad (by anger sometimes) who once hurt me, it's the contrary i look at it as building non fragile strong personality that can find spot in this universe and fight for my own well-being.
 
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Being angry at the faults and wrong stuff in life is not a bad thing but you'll see many toxic people and many situations and being angry in all of them which is a very big number isn't good for health.
 
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Sep 14, 2019
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Have you ever thought about going to anger mananement? Anger will eat away at you and cause you to make really bad decisions. I know from personal experience.
I have something called Complex regional pain syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. I got it at 20 and I'm 34 now. I've been isolated for 14 years and I have a difficult time dealing with people when I have to go to the doctors....which happens to be tomorrow. Uggghhh.

I've gotten physical with my mom which I deeply regret because she has to take care of me. I'm angry this disease took 14 years of my life away from me and robbed me of all the wonderful experience I could have had. I don't even know what love feels like. I've had 6 surgeries that didn't help my problem. I've been hurt physically by doctors. I've been black nailed by doctors. I don't have the patience to handle people anymore. I sometimes wind up sabatoging myelf when I get angry and I wind up in a lot more physical pain. That happened today. I wish I could go to a therapist but unfortunately one major place I have this condition is inside my ears and head and jaw. So talking hurts like hell and so does listening. It would help me a lot more because the more my blood pressure rises from anger the more pain I'm in. And I bet it's like that for you mentally. You're not physically hurting but you're mentally hurting and the more you get upset the deeper you sink. I really hope you can find some help. A psychiatrist, therapist, anger mananement. Whatever it may be. Wishing you the best of luck.
 
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Daniela

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Feb 23, 2019
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Being both on and off Fluoxetine gave me serious anger issues.
 
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Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
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Being both on and off Fluoxetine gave me serious anger issues.
I remember I was given medication for headaches and I'd tell my doctor I was getting irritable and angry but he kept on upping it. It got to the point where I overheard my family discussing me and saying j had bipolar disorder. When I went to another doctor he said I can't believe how much medication this doctor had you on. No wonder your moods were changing at the drop of a hat. It was nice to to hah! To my family and say take your BPD and shove it up your ass. I don't suffer with mental issues like that. I mean I have depression of course because if my physical situation but I don't suffer from mental disorders.
 
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I remember I was given medication for headaches and I'd tell my doctor I was getting irritable and angry but he kept on upping it. It got to the point where I overheard my family discussing me and saying j had bipolar disorder. When I went to another doctor he said I can't believe how much medication this doctor had you on. No wonder your moods were changing at the drop of a hat. It was nice to to hah! To my family and say take your BPD and shove it up your ass. I don't suffer with mental issues like that. I mean I have depression of course because if my physical situation but I don't suffer from mental disorders.

I took an antidepressant (don't remember which one, but it was drops, not tablets) which made me drowsy and my therapist simply said, "But it doesn't make people drowsy."
 
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Sep 14, 2019
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I took an antidepressant (don't remember which one, but it was drops, not tablets) which made me drowsy and my therapist simply said, "But it doesn't make people drowsy."
And this is why I despise doctors.
 
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Azizw126

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Oct 29, 2019
41
Thank you for your replies.
I wish you all peace and relief you deserve sweet emotion. My heart and prayers are with you.
Tomorrow i have an appointment with psychiatrist who i really loathe. Doctors have this sick ego when you discuss other treatment options with them.
I tried many times to make him change the medication I'm taking he won't listen. I would look for onother psychiatrist but here in Canada finding one is like finding a needle in stack of hay. I'm struggling alone trying my best to fight but I'm exhausted and the sever winter which already started in northern Ontario makes me more grumpy and sad. Tonight i felt something i missed many many years ago. I found a guy who liked me, his arm around me took me away from this reality and this why i came to Canada as lgbt refugee. I left everything behind for the sake of having normal life. Sorry i got deep into tiny details and carried away but i wanted to say it here to people that really understand.

Daniela
I totally agree with you
Since day one i started taking this cursed pills i became like angry grandpa lol. I've been acting like a bitch with my only friend here and he doesn't deserve that. Everytime i regret my bad attitude towards him but i keep snapping at him again and again. Pray for me that this arrogant psycho will change flouxetine tomorrow.
Again thank you all and excuse my weak English.
Peace
 
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Azizw126

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Police has a file on me now so...
Please be careful when coming off Fluoxetine.
I'm really worried about coming off it. I had bad experience back home in 2010 when i quite fluoxetine almost went to jail because i made up a situation from nothing with someone in the street.
 
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Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
Thank you for your replies.
I wish you all peace and relief you deserve sweet emotion. My heart and prayers are with you.
Tomorrow i have an appointment with psychiatrist who i really loathe. Doctors have this sick ego when you discuss other treatment options with them.
I tried many times to make him change the medication I'm taking he won't listen. I would look for onother psychiatrist but here in Canada finding one is like finding a needle in stack of hay. I'm struggling alone trying my best to fight but I'm exhausted and the sever winter which already started in northern Ontario makes me more grumpy and sad. Tonight i felt something i missed many many years ago. I found a guy who liked me, his arm around me took me away from this reality and this why i came to Canada as lgbt refugee. I left everything behind for the sake of having normal life. Sorry i got deep into tiny details and carried away but i wanted to say it here to people that really understand.

Daniela
I totally agree with you
Since day one i started taking this cursed pills i became like angry grandpa lol. I've been acting like a bitch with my only friend here and he doesn't deserve that. Everytime i regret my bad attitude towards him but i keep snapping at him again and again. Pray for me that this arrogant psycho will change flouxetine tomorrow.
Again thank you all and excuse my weak English.
Peace
Thank you very much for the kind words and well wishes. It means a lot to me.i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with my pain management. I just know he's going to keep lowering them on me because he has been. But I don't want to get off this level. And you gave an appt with your shrink. My shrink is so dumb but that's why I go to her. I can get her to do anything. But I k ow what you mean about doctors and their egos. I've been given two ultimatums where if I didn't go to two doctors that were going to cause me extra pain, then I was going to have my pain meds taken away and then if I cancel an appointment I'd be fired as a patient. Like are you kidding me? These people love having power over others. They get off on it and it's just sick. They have lost their compassion and none of them have a good bedside manner anymore. I knew this day was going to come when the doctors started lowering my needs because if the FDA. The real drug addicts are overdosing so people like me are being punished. We need pain meds to survive so we can get up in the morning and get through our day. They're liars too. I have grown a tremendous hated towards doctors. And when they do something wrong it's never their fault and you can never prove it. I don't know how most of them got their medical degrees.
 

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