ferrie
she/they
- May 19, 2024
- 513
I had my third Spravato appointment today, and I took 56mg. Most people go to 84mg at their second appointment, so they probably see stronger effects than I do. My mood has already been noticeably affected though. I've had multiple people tell me I've seemed more upbeat this past week, and I do feel a bit lighter. There's like a physical sense of relief, like after you finish a task you had been stressing about. I'm not really happy, but even just this slight shift seems promising since peak effectiveness is around 4-6 weeks & it hasn't even been 2 for me yet. In terms of suicidal ideations, I don't feel the really intense despair of needing to ctb. I think I will still end up ctbing, but I'm not constantly thinking about it like I was even a week ago. I also don't really want to recover so the more rational aspects of why I want to ctb will always stay, but the emotional aspects are lessening. From how I'm reacting to Spravato in such a short time, I think it's probably a really good option for people that want to recover & whose main barrier is depression