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Ken Ough

Member
Jan 28, 2021
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It goes without saying that I have no opportunities to CTB in isolation, so I have to get out and look for a job and social connections.

A chef with no working experience and free training is a tempting offer. Too tempting for me to believe I can easily get it.

Atm I'm writing a resume and even though idk what to say about myself in the free-form, I can feel how my brain is opening up to new horizons.

I would be surprised if everything goes according to my daydreams.
 
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timf

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Mar 26, 2020
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There is a potential problem with daydreams. If you have a good imagination, you may be able to create an ideal world in which any real life will fall short in comparison. This can result is feeling disappointed no matter how good your real life gets.

It might be possibile to get experience as a chef working part time in a diner or even at a fast food restaurant. They always seem to be looking for help.
 
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Ken Ough

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Jan 28, 2021
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life will fall short
Well, you're spot on with this one.
I got the job, but the problem is moving:

1. All the cheap and nice appartments are rented in seconds;
2. My father refuses to help me with anything. He takes my mother's side and wants me to become their household slave;
3. I found an intelligent guy on social media who needed a roommate (a rare chance), but it turned out that he is no longer in need (I'm always late to a party).

I guess it all hints at the fact that everything's irredeemable and I need to try a good old hunger method.
I locked myself in the flat and atm I am just lying down. This state is permanent.
 
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