Anyone else can’t function?

[orangepulp]

I can't cook, cleaning, drive, work, socialise, travel on my own. I can't watch tv, play video games, read a book.

I don't know if it's laziness but when I try and do these things it's like my brain gets set on fire and is forcefully pushing back against me using it. My brain hates thinking. What a joke. Anything I have to use my brain to do, my brain shuts down or if I used to be able to do it I can kind of do it on autopilot but I'm losing that ability more and more as the years go by.

 

[roommate]

Depression can make it hard to concentrate :/

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

The only thing that has me doing anything is fear, I don't know how to properly elaborate but it's fear for me, and even then I'm barely functional enough for me to not have to fear, the idea is unimaginable.

 

[divinemistress36]

I can do them but not for long

 

[ninonino1]

I can't do any of these things due to medication withdrawal...

 

[29Forever]

Yes! I haven't cooked a meal in months, I can't enjoy the things I used to. All I think about is how I don't have to feel like this for much longer. I've had to take time off work I'm struggling to keep my head above water. My issues aren't fixable so it's frustrating. I'm just a body with no soul wandering my house in despair

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

IKR? Why can't we just die so that we don't have to keep suffering through pointless and mundane things anymore?

Oh wait...we can.

 

[Prism]

I believe this is called executive dysfunction and I guess I suffer from it as well. It's hard to focus or get anything done when it all feels pointless. Maybe I am just lazy, but I feel like I would be enjoying myself if that were the only factor.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I can do stuff but sure, my brain often pushes back. I'm constantly angry at how much I hate doing whatever it is and I feel exhausted at the end. Plenty of things, I feel so reluctant doing now that I don't do them. Unfortunately, I'm able to live in a messy enviroment, so it can get really bad.

I'm not so sold on the word 'can't' though. It's more 'won't' for me. Definitely lazzyness a lot of the time for me but then- how come it's lazzyness for some and, depression for others? I wonder where the distinction lies. Aren't we all lazy and lethargic for a reason?

The trouble for me is, certain things would make life more complicated if I refused to do them. If I refuse to work- which I now find extremely difficult, I would get so much shit from my parents. They also simply couldn't afford to finance me forever and, I don't fancy homelessness so- that's out.

That kind of necessitates other things I also don't want to do- like: get out of bed at a reasonable hour, take basic care of myself and all the domestic crap. Even maintain a certain level of fitness so that my job doesn't become any harder.

So, it feels like being trapped between a rock and a hard place. My mind and body is telling me it doesn't want to do all this shit- constantly but then, I also kind of know that I can't practically do none of it either. So- I try to compromise with myself. Put on films and music as a distraction. Do the asolute bare minimum. Let some things go completely. Plus, I hope ultimately, I will rescue myself from this ridiculous situation and CTB.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

My anxiety is so bad that I can't even do basic everyday tasks. I'm so unhappy.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

it's hard for me to function but i do try. i don't enjoy going out anymore, i'd prefer to stay home and rot away; i'm apprehensive towards food (because of weight gain fear and because it's a life force), i feel extremely lonely and isolated but i've learned my lesson on trying to get help from people.