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Done_with_the_world
I don’t know if I want to die or run away.
- Oct 16, 2024
- 11
I have been so sick of trying to take care of my dumb body for as long as I can remember.
I get angry at my stomach whenever it rumbles and wish I could ignore eating. I hate the sensation of eating. I feel so gross and disgusting when I feel full and feel a lot better when I don't eat for a while. The feeling of having food move through my body is so gross to me.
Recently my body has also been just so sluggish and tired recently, and I can't concentrate. I'm so angry at myself for not being able to stay focused. I wish the stupid fatigue would go away. I went to the doctor but it will take a while for results to come in. I hav to do blood work, to see what it is. I hope it's not prediabetes, since Halloween has come and gone. I'm getting annoyed because I really want to do my housework, and also my homework. But I'm too tired to do it. I'm getting severely angry at the mess.
I have just grown so tired of living, and the process of me being alive. Wondering if anyone else can relate.
I get angry at my stomach whenever it rumbles and wish I could ignore eating. I hate the sensation of eating. I feel so gross and disgusting when I feel full and feel a lot better when I don't eat for a while. The feeling of having food move through my body is so gross to me.
Recently my body has also been just so sluggish and tired recently, and I can't concentrate. I'm so angry at myself for not being able to stay focused. I wish the stupid fatigue would go away. I went to the doctor but it will take a while for results to come in. I hav to do blood work, to see what it is. I hope it's not prediabetes, since Halloween has come and gone. I'm getting annoyed because I really want to do my housework, and also my homework. But I'm too tired to do it. I'm getting severely angry at the mess.
I have just grown so tired of living, and the process of me being alive. Wondering if anyone else can relate.