Anyone else dreading Christmas?

[Rhymester]

Each year, the same BS. Christmas spirit, etc. Tons of people shopping. People with loving families and partners. Christmas would be good if I saw a gun under the Christmas tree. I never get what I want. Sleep is my only solace. I just want death to be instant. I've been thinking about the train method, but God, the consequences of failing are horrifying.

 

[trashhologram]

I'm not a Christmas person at all. It's a pointless holiday to me. I'll admit I got myself a cute Moomin tea advent calendar though Next month it'll be easy to choose what kind of a tea I'll drink in the evening haha. Other than that, I'm not looking forward to Christmas at all.

 

[KillingPain267]

I loved Christmas, but then I grew up. I now hate Christmas and how it's forced upon everyone publically. If it should not be banned outright, if someone wants to celebrate it, they should do so in private. It should be mandatory to only say "happy holidays" and not "merry Christmas". And I say this as a Christian!

 

[FuneralCry]

I dread every day of suffering in this existence no matter what, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, only when I no longer exist will I be at peace, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace and never suffer again, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the relief of an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[Chinaski]

I dread every day of suffering in this existence no matter what, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, only when I no longer exist will I be at peace, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace and never suffer again, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the relief of an eternal, dreamless sleep.

thanks

Anyway back on topic, not dreading so much but this is the first I'll be spending alone, no invites for better or worse, no socialising, and as much as I've never been christmassy and often felt i was putting the effort in to appease others on this one i have literally no obligations, and idk, be careful what you wish for imo

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm indifferent towards christmas because I never really celebrated christmas in the first place due to my parents not celebrating it as it goes against their religion

 

[Red Moon]

I'm not dreading Christmas, it's something that the family celebrates yearly even though I've little to no interest in it anymore.

 

[badomen]

I don't look forward to festivities because I know I have a moral obligation to not CTB close to or on those dates as to not ruin the spirit. This especially holds true for Christmas, so the dilemma is that I have to either CTB very soon or wait until after the New Year—I doubt that I have the drive for the former.

 

[BasePl27]

I enjoy holidays since days like christmas break the dreadful tedium of everyday life for me.

 

[kitkat9234]

I've hated Christmas pretty much my whole adult life. My birthday is three days before so maybe that's part of the reason? I dunno. Maybe because my family is fucked up. When my daughter was born I was all into it just for her sake. But now she is 10 and is around that age to be skeptical about Santa. I wish she finds out from someone because I really can't afford much this year. Not to mention that stupid elf smh. I can't bring myself to tell her though as I don't want to break her heart even more. She's been through a lot. I'm such a piece of shit.