• UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.

  • Hey Guest,

    Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.

    This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.

    In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].

    Read our statement here:

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1L
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
madscotsman

madscotsman

Member
Nov 11, 2024
52
Its like a melancholic madadaptive daydream, it could be a mix of just the right drugs, a song, and a movie playing at the same time,

a particular thought paired with a particular noise at the right time and it just takes you to a different place where things seem better that you don't want to put down and want to just escape into, or anything else,

some examples for me are the opening scene of guardians of the galaxy 3 while on ketamine and creep by radio head plays, it gives me a feeling of misfits bonded in brotherhood and this bigger overarching theme about society as a whole, there was other examples but I forgot them
 
  • Like
Reactions: CatLvr and Forever Sleep
Nothing Left

Nothing Left

🧿
Sep 6, 2024
172
Pretty much 95% of my waking life.

It's hard to stay lucid anymore; just brings constant awareness of my miserable circumstances.

I spent the majority of life in my head.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: CatLvr
Wrath

Wrath

Long live my dead dreams.
Dec 12, 2024
11
I daydream and stare at my computer monitor for 12 hours a day. Just listening to music. Not playing games. Not watching pirated tv. It makes me so happy that I start to cry. I'm disconnected from everything. I look away from my clock and suddenly it's lunchtime. I turn on another album, look back, suddenly it's dinner. I don't know what this 'problem' is. I don't want to fix it either. I tried to get rid of it once, which led to me screaming in my room when no one was home, clawing at my chest because the psychological pain somehow felt real. I couldn't stop crying and sobbing. Truly pathetic.

I spent the majority of life in my head.
The first time I heard this was from an author. I stopped and read the sentence over and over. For some reason. It really meant something to me. I was confused at first, and wondered, "How does anyone not manage to live this way?". Then I realized, I'm the broken one. Went home, had a meltdown and broke my computer, then cried about that too. Nothing, nothing ever changes.

Just staring. Hoping. Waiting. For nothing.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: gummycentipede, CatLvr and Nothing Left
F

Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,304
I get specific memory 'jolts' back to certain situations and places. Not all of them nice. Other times, it's just a feeling.

Like a deja vu moment that I've felt that precise way in the past. Sometimes, it's just a weird feeling- probably because I'm like- 'Oh, this again'. Then, I start wondering what I did to trigger it. Was it always the same action, the same music or media on on the background? I'm not so sure there is a link though. I'm not even sure what 'it' is. The nearest thing I can describe it to is liminal spaces- so- spaces that feel familar and yet, eerie at the same time.

Sometimes I wonder if it's something significant. Not that I am all that spiritual but- what if 'it's' supposed to mean something or be telling me something? It's not exactly a memory after all and, I didn't choose to think it. So, why did 'it' come about? I think maybe it's as simple as the spinning disc you get on computers while they're 'thinking'. Maybe it's just my mind stalling. Lol.
 
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,786
I can daydream for 8+ hours/day. I have kept myself awake for hours at night daydreaming. No drugs needed though as I have honed the skill over a lifetime.
 
  • Like
Reactions: CatLvr
RIPwednesdayadams

RIPwednesdayadams

Member
Dec 17, 2021
34
unfortunately no. i can never seem to escape my fucked up reality anymore.
 
Too_Many_Years

Too_Many_Years

Future Corpse
Dec 18, 2024
15
I do but then its back to reality and i crave the way those moments made me feel. The lightness, the freedom, the pure exhiliration in my body. Real life is a mask and faked emotions, those moments are not.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Parnate
P

Parnate

Experienced
Dec 16, 2021
255
I do but then its back to reality and i crave the way those moments made me feel. The lightness, the freedom, the pure exhiliration in my body. Real life is a mask and faked emotions, those moments are not.
You said exactly what I feel.
 
C

CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,188
I can daydream for 8+ hours/day. I have kept myself awake for hours at night daydreaming. No drugs needed though as I have honed the skill over a lifetime.
I've always wondered if I was just a little bit crazy because when my headaches get so bad I will do this. It's one of the few ways (and the safest way) I can escape the pain for a little while. The first time I remember having this "skill" was when I was 4.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Forveleth

Similar threads

s00ngone
Replies
1
Views
243
Suicide Discussion
MercenariesofMidgar
MercenariesofMidgar
supergold#2
Replies
5
Views
750
Suicide Discussion
SchrodingerIsDed
SchrodingerIsDed
Pluto
Replies
4
Views
488
Recovery
Hvergelmir
H
anagram
Replies
15
Views
4K
Suicide Discussion
dead dav
dead dav