id reccomend reading
william whites faq, besides his thoughts on it being used as an antidepressant (today it is used in auvelity, it has drawbacks like everything else and i dont agree with psychiatry that every patient should aim to take medicine everyday but i find use of it as an antidepressent with responsible use), its a solid guide detailing the history of dxm up until when he wrote it, what it feels like and dosages. i take hbr cause freebase is too speedy for me, it makes me feel numb, enhances music (in plat 3 and higher your hearing gets choppy though), and hoenstly i dont remember sometimes ill be straight up open eye visual tripping (most people get closed eye visuals, i have visual snow and prone to hppd), and ill feel more connected to whoever i am talking to depending on dosage (i use a lower dose if i just want to listen to music) but i get really nice afterglows where eveyrthing is more colourful and im in a good mood. with dissos tolerance builds quicky and takes forever to go away so i don't really hole anymore but the holes ive had were crazy af turning into objects or going into the backrooms. dxm reminds me of logic from fear and hunger, i dont wanna spoil it for other people but id search up the ending if you don't mind, i find it has a very empty mechanical collective vibe to it. i mean hypertension is referred to "robo-walk" (yeah some peoples legs hurt from vasoconstriction, i wouldnt continue using if that were the case). to be honest its hard for me to remember because it puts you in a seperate state to your normal memories, i think its why i don't really crave it is i can't in my brain relive the sensations the same way i can remember how on a windy day at the beach sand stings your legs.
the thing is though dxm varies alot person to person as it targets many receptors, and the bodyload especially if youre not used to it can be a turn off (prepare to itch and feel sick lol, weed can negate this but people dont reccomend using a large dose of both for first times due to potentiation, what i do doing dxm on its own is just let myself puke). some people dont get afterglows they get hangovers, some peolpe just hate it, some people are lucky and get consistent body euphoria. i dont have a problem now but when i first started using i redosed multiple times in one night like i forgot how much i took or that i shouldnt redose plus using multiple nights in a row and i was brainfucked like this for 3 days:
my serotonin receptors were FRIED, only thing that was amazing was music but i would go from some buddha kind of peace to hopelessly empty and suicidal, the dissociation was actually smothering and deafening and i thought a skinwalker had replaced me. my memories were all far away and i couldn't relive them or interpret them as actually lived through. also after that i got a bit addicted but i sorted it out and all bueno this year. it was a pretty embarrassing experience though as i had to ask to sleepover at someone elses place and they took me to hospital and i had to explain
. alot of people i knew online ended up addicted and in binges, theyd be loopy as fuck and eventually it just becomes dysphoric for them as they try to do 1g+ doses consistently and usually it comes with using other things that are problematic for different reasons ie. psychosis (eg anticholinergics), liver damage (eg alcohol), heart problems (eg meth), and more. you can risk respitory depression using opioids or benzos so also a bit of a no go and theres risk of serotonin syndrome if using other setrogenic drugs.
feel free to ask me more questions dxm is one of my favourite subjects even if i never took it again
