Discussion Anyone else giving themselves some time to "change their life"?

[Young]

I'm curious. I'm giving myself some good years and I'll try my best to really turn this miserable life around. Curious about others.

I understand some are seeking ctb because of medical conditions. I feel truly sorry. Our countries don't want to give us the necessary methods to leave peacefully and people keep having to resort to other methods. I hope you find it here.

For others, just the fact of existence of life is a punishment (and I agree to some extent). We didn't choose to be here.

 

[TheHolySword]

No. I've been trying all my life. It doesn't get better, it doesn't get easier. Nothing has ever helped me. I'm tired. Of everything. And I'm done.

 

[LostLily]

I have a remind that will go off on the September 1st that said " do you still want to ctb?"
If I still want to do it by then , I will put my plan into actiom

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

My life has been destroyed, there's nothing left to turn around. There's nothing left to build on and I don't have the energy left to hope for miracles. So I'm just waiting for death, ideally sooner rather than later.

 

[Malfunction]

I've been around for awhile. If it hasn't gotten better by now, it isn't going to. Health issues keep piling on, so I'm good with it.

 

[-Tandem-]

I think I'm gonna give it one final shot...idk why but fuck it

 

[Shiru]

Wish you the best of lucks! Hope you can do it

 

[pointblank]

Nah. I'm jaded about life. I'm not a fan of the rat race. It's suffering.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

I feel like the circumstances life's set for me make it so that even if I were able to turn things around, I would end up regretting it in the future anyway. Dying soon is the only path for me.

 

[LastLoveSong]

anytime i try even just to achieve a moments peace i always end up failing, always. My one true goal is to commit suicide but my brain seems to want even the tiniest amount of peace first, i dont believe that'll ever happen though for the most part, im just trapped in a loop of agony. Maybe one of these days it'll all line up perfectly though and ill never be heard from again. But if you're asking if theres even a small part of me that wants to live my answer is no, I see no hope for humanity or myself, its just that theres a big part of me thats bored and unfulfilled.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I really hope you are able to.

For me, it's more that I feel stuck here while my Dad is still alive. I don't have plans to try and make things better. Ironically, things are better because I have fewer ambitions. I used to spend so much time longing for success in my career and berating myself for not having achieved what I wanted. The upside of not wanting so much means at least the feeling of failure is diminished!

That said, I'm going to have to work so hard just to maintain my life at the current level. (Sustain myself financially via a freelance creative career.) So, it's still realistically going to be a lot of hard work!

I really hope you are able to turn things around though. All the best to you.

 

[Anon7b8]

I really did try this year. Frankly, i saw hope a couple of times early in the year that things could get better. But well, life has a way to kick you down and drown you in misery. I fear that as of now I don't even have the choice of catching the bus anymore.

 

[Lost Magic]

My survival instinct says give it another year or so, but my rationale being is telling me to gtfo as soon as possible I know it's only going to get worse, but whatever. Just killing time I guess.

 

[loveloss7]

Nah. I'm jaded about life. I'm not a fan of the rat race. It's suffering.

(hug)

 

[ijustwishtodie]

The idea of changing my life is incoherent since the issue that I have is with existence itself rather than my own life specifically. I consider existence itself to be shitty and flawed.