Anyone else have 0 motivation to do basic things?

[777puppy777]

For background I have CPTSD and a schzio disorder and depression. When it gets bad and everything begins to act up I cannot do basic things for the life of me or I will start to hallucinate uncontrollably and physical sensations and the voices just cheer my pain on. I've been trying to work overcoming this as it doesn't make my living situation comfortable at all. I may be unhappy with life and not want to be here but I wish I at least had the energy to take a shower, eat, keep things organized/clean daily.

It takes a lot of meditation and mental power to find the right mindset to do so. A lot of things have been piling up these past few weeks that I need to get done and man….I just can't.

 

[Steff1337]

Absolutely get what you're talking about. I suffer from autism and schizophrenia, and am not able to do some of the regular, everyday things.
I live with my mother, she's my caretaker. I wouldn't be able to live on my own.

 

[Hollowman]

Yep almost everything seems pointless.

 

[Space Outlaw Bunny]

yes, I have recurrent depressive disorder and autism, maybe something to add
also I believe it would be better if I didn't existence

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Me. I don't want to deal with the basic things though. I just want to lay down and rot peacefully without anybody bothering me

 

[genoke]

For background I have CPTSD and a schzio disorder and depression. When it gets bad and everything begins to act up I cannot do basic things for the life of me or I will start to hallucinate uncontrollably and physical sensations and the voices just cheer my pain on. I've been trying to work overcoming this as it doesn't make my living situation comfortable at all. I may be unhappy with life and not want to be here but I wish I at least had the energy to take a shower, eat, keep things organized/clean daily.

It takes a lot of meditation and mental power to find the right mindset to do so. A lot of things have been piling up these past few weeks that I need to get done and man….I just can't.

I did so much yesterday. It's 11am and and I'm still in bed. Hit by a train. Cuz I cleaned and did laundry yesterday. And I'm sweating now. I hear you so loud man. I've never been this depressed in my life and I'm not used to it. But I did it. But now I feel wrecked. I'm 37. This is such an obnoxious, futile and ridiculous way to exist.

 

[mikuhappy]

yes, I have depression and bipolar disorder and feel the same way

 

[stayedtoolong]

Depression & BPD. It's so hard I'm unable to function.

 

[Pluto]

 

[777puppy777]

Me. I don't want to deal with the basic things though. I just want to lay down and rot peacefully without anybody bothering me

Yeah I feel that especially the rot peacefully stuff. I'm sorry.

 

[SteamaHorns]

Yeah, though I don't think I have much of a special reason for why I'm not able to other than getting anxiety and pure laziness.

 

[astr4]

i was thinking about this earlier and i think i know exactly why i hate doing anything

my mom especially used to be hyper critical of me, no matter what i did, i did it wrong. so now i feel shame whenever i have to accomplish any task. even washing the dishes or doing my own laundry makes me feel shame because of how much i've accumulated.

and if i do school or work i'm setting myself up for judgement from others. someone else has to evaluate my worth? that's even more shame.

so of course i don't do anything. why would i when it makes me feel ashamed to exist?

 

[Gangrel]

i was thinking about this earlier and i think i know exactly why i hate doing anything

my mom especially used to be hyper critical of me, no matter what i did, i did it wrong. so now i feel shame whenever i have to accomplish any task. even washing the dishes or doing my own laundry makes me feel shame because of how much i've accumulated.

and if i do school or work i'm setting myself up for judgement from others. someone else has to evaluate my worth? that's even more shame.

so of course i don't do anything. why would i when it makes me feel ashamed to exist?

I relate a lot to you, mom was also very critical of me, sometimes i'm ashamed of even existing, i will wear a scarf on the street and feel fucking humiliated for no reason, even putting glasses on or doing anything in front of more than one person. One day she said i was "breathing wrong".

 

[pyx]

yeah, i lack the energy to navigate even basic tasks, let alone do anything productive. i'll bedrot for an entire day and, before i know it, will realize that it's night-time already

 

[CatLvr]

I feel this in every cell of my body! I either barely manage to get out of bed or I am bouncing off the walls. It is absolutely infuriating. Sigh. And nobody understands -- "You were fine a couple of days ago. You can't be that sick. You look fine."

 

[leloyon]

I brushed my teeth last week for the first time in over a year, I can't remember when I last showered but it was months ago and I don't know how long I've been wearing these same clothes.
So yeah, I can relate. I currently have diagnoses of BPD, OCD, depression and anxiety, also looking to get a PTSD diagnosis but the mental health system sucks here, I was lucky enough to get even my current ones.

 

[777puppy777]

i was thinking about this earlier and i think i know exactly why i hate doing anything

my mom especially used to be hyper critical of me, no matter what i did, i did it wrong. so now i feel shame whenever i have to accomplish any task. even washing the dishes or doing my own laundry makes me feel shame because of how much i've accumulated.

and if i do school or work i'm setting myself up for judgement from others. someone else has to evaluate my worth? that's even more shame.

so of course i don't do anything. why would i when it makes me feel ashamed to exist?

I have this same exact issue. Istg i have like kitchen/chore ptsd or something smh. I would always get things done that my mom asked of me but there was always something I did wrong, whether it was a line of dust or a water stain or just anything. It's a huge reason as to why I can't do anything without having a panic attack. Mainly chores and cooking.

I brushed my teeth last week for the first time in over a year, I can't remember when I last showered but it was months ago and I don't know how long I've been wearing these same clothes.
So yeah, I can relate. I currently have diagnoses of BPD, OCD, depression and anxiety, also looking to get a PTSD diagnosis but the mental health system sucks here, I was lucky enough to get even my current ones.

I'm sorry. I hope things look up for you. I know if it wasn't for my job I'd be in the same position so I feel you. Unfortunately I have to do a couple things for myself, and it's so painful to do so.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I can't work, my mind won't let me. I tried so many times, but always after a 8 hour work shift I felt like immediately slitting my throat with a knife and began to cry. Now I just sit at home doing nothing except being online 24/7.

 

[777puppy777]

I relate a lot to you, mom was also very critical of me, sometimes i'm ashamed of even existing, i will wear a scarf on the street and feel fucking humiliated for no reason, even putting glasses on or doing anything in front of more than one person. One day she said i was "breathing wrong".

Are you my twin my siblings said the same thing to me once and my parents agreed that I was 'breathing wrong' but I knew it was just coming from my sister breathing loud when she ate at dinner. So much more stupid stuff like that-like once I said thank you to my mom and she started berating me saying 'I said it weird' so much other weird bs. I'm so sorry, but I'm glad you and I arnt alone. It really messes with you in ways you never realize.

 

[justamirror]

It's difficult to do most things. Bipolar and depression and gad … pretty bad case of anhedonia right now as well. The only thing I can do is continue to eat smoke ciggies and watch a new tv show I'm into rn

 

[eddy hendryx]

I sometimes do the bare minimum to get things out of the way and spend the rest of my day on my room, then forget about the rest of the world, sincerely it's frustrating when having things I'd love to do but, I simply can't or refuse to