Anyone else partly suicidal, because of virginity?

[CoolGuy9]

There is no reason for a girl to love me. I will probably die as a virgin unless I go for a prostitute. Prostitutes don't interest me though. I wanna have sex with someone who wants to do it with me. The idea of being a 40 year old man one day who never had a girlfriend really bothers me. I just really wanna feel like what it's like to have a girlfriend. It feels sad and pathetic, because that's what it is.

 

[Pepega]

There is no reason for a girl to love me. I will probably die as a virgin unless I go for a prostitute. Prostitutes don't interest me though. I wanna have sex with someone who wants to do it with me. The idea of being a 40 year old man one day who never had a girlfriend really bothers me. I just really wanna feel like what it's like to have a girlfriend. It feels sad and pathetic, because that's what it is.

Jesus you sound like you are my clone in every post

 

[CoolGuy9]

Jesus you sound like you are my clone in every post

Fuck, they're onto us!

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

There is no reason for a girl to love me. I will probably die as a virgin unless I go for a prostitute. Prostitutes don't interest me though. I wanna have sex with someone who wants to do it with me. The idea of being a 40 year old man one day who never had a girlfriend really bothers me. I just really wanna feel like what it's like to have a girlfriend. It feels sad and pathetic, because that's what it is.

It doesn't seem either sad or pathetic to me. I think the desire for close, sensual relationships is perfectly natural. And you are still quite young, if I recall. Why not make it your life's goal to find companionship for now. No need to give up hope while you still have a chance. You can always give up on "love" when you're older, and don't have anything to offer (like me).

 

[Cormok]

You are not the only one in that situation, it's really hard to accept the solitude. But that's life, love it's not allow to every one. We were unlucky at our birth.

 

[anuglymale]

Well, not because of virginity, at the end of the day prostitutes do exist, but because people simply avoid having contacts with me

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I can relate, but this misery loves company camaraderie is really beautiful isn't it? Fak the haters, we all share suffering, yet we all are unique in it, imagine one's self as a God realizing itself back on itself and so on so trippy sorry coughy syrup. Perception is a good chunk of reality, but then there are those hard truths that hurt I know. hugs warmly

 

[snowman626]

Im 33 virgin and never had a gf or been on a date. Everyday i fantasize about what it would feel like to kiss a beautiful woman and make love to her. I am very desperate and an escort is my only hope and im scared to do even that.

At this point in my life i lack the necessary social skills to find a gf. Within minutes of interaction any girl will see that i clearly have some kind of problem via my awkward physical movements, weird speech, and other things. I cant hold a conversation, girls think im awkward and creepy.

Growing up i never developed any skills on how to talk to people, now its too late. How can i ever explain to a girl why im 33 and never had a gf? It just gets harder with each passing year.

My parents dont understand and probably thinks im gay. But i want a gf im not gay.

I cant get a gf though because any girl who would date some loser like me is either got problems herself or putting up with me for a date or two out of pity before she drops me anyway.

 

[Minudah]

My lack of orientation is one reason, and my virginity is a result of that, but I'm happy as a virgin. I just wish I were straight. I'm the only one who's never been attracted anyone because I'm the worst lab rat. Everyone hates, to straight people I'm gay and to everyone else I'm straight, and they, so I'm not allowed to be anywhere and I'm not safe anywhere.

 

[felix]

Im 33 virgin and never had a gf or been on a date. Everyday i fantasize about what it would feel like to kiss a beautiful woman and make love to her. I am very desperate and an escort is my only hope and im scared to do even that.

At this point in my life i lack the necessary social skills to find a gf. Within minutes of interaction any girl will see that i clearly have some kind of problem via my awkward physical movements, weird speech, and other things. I cant hold a conversation, girls think im awkward and creepy.

Growing up i never developed any skills on how to talk to people, now its too late. How can i ever explain to a girl why im 33 and never had a gf? It just gets harder with each passing year.

My parents dont understand and probably thinks im gay. But i want a gf im not gay.

I cant get a gf though because any girl who would date some loser like me is either got problems herself or putting up with me for a date or two out of pity before she drops me anyway.

Exactly same reasons I never tried with anyone

 

[CoolGuy9]

It doesn't seem either sad or pathetic to me. I think the desire for close, sensual relationships is perfectly natural. And you are still quite young, if I recall. Why not make it your life's goal to find companionship for now. No need to give up hope while you still have a chance. You can always give up on "love" when you're older, and don't have anything to offer (like me).

It's not sad and pathetic, because I want a relationship, but because I can't get into a relationship like that due to my shitty social skills. Gonna try therapy soon as that is the only thing that might save me. If it fails then ctb is my last option. Also sorry to hear that you have nothing to offer.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

There is no reason for a girl to love me. I will probably die as a virgin unless I go for a prostitute. Prostitutes don't interest me though. I wanna have sex with someone who wants to do it with me. The idea of being a 40 year old man one day who never had a girlfriend really bothers me. I just really wanna feel like what it's like to have a girlfriend. It feels sad and pathetic, because that's what it is.

You should visit incels.is they would agree with you, or we could talk on discord.

 

[GeorgeJL]

There is no reason for a girl to love me. I will probably die as a virgin unless I go for a prostitute. Prostitutes don't interest me though. I wanna have sex with someone who wants to do it with me. The idea of being a 40 year old man one day who never had a girlfriend really bothers me. I just really wanna feel like what it's like to have a girlfriend. It feels sad and pathetic, because that's what it is.

I bang escorts from Escort Babylon. It's not the best but it will do for now. I banged this really hot chick that looked like a porn star. That was awesome.

 

[yami9292]

Yeah, partly me too. I'm still a virgin and it feels like no ones want to have sexual relationship with me but at the sametime I don't give them the chance because I hate myself so much, I have the poorest communication skills when comes to friends and potential partners, hell I don't have any friends now. I mean I hate myself so I'd really need someone to tell me they really care for me before I do anything, but within the days before I ctb it won't matter honestly, I at least want to have sex before I ctb which by then I feel like it won't matter that I hate myself because I'll be dead anyway. But my virginity def has affected the reason I want to ctb, and I probs won't have sex before I do anyway but I like to think that maybe I would haha.

 

[YongeDundas]

Anyone who feels bad about being a virgin: it feels much worse to hate yourself for having too much sex. It's like "I fucked THAT person?! What the hell is wrong with me?". Self respect feels better than sex, trust me.

 

[CoolGuy9]

Anyone who feels bad about being a virgin: it feels much worse to hate yourself for having too much sex. It's like "I fucked THAT person?! What the hell is wrong with me?". Self respect feels better than sex, trust me.

I don't really have any self respect, but I can believe, that this is worse.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yeah, partly me too. I'm still a virgin and it feels like no ones want to have sexual relationship with me but at the sametime I don't give them the chance because I hate myself so much, I have the poorest communication skills when comes to friends and potential partners, hell I don't have any friends now. I mean I hate myself so I'd really need someone to tell me they really care for me before I do anything, but within the days before I ctb it won't matter honestly, I at least want to have sex before I ctb which by then I feel like it won't matter that I hate myself because I'll be dead anyway. But my virginity def has affected the reason I want to ctb, and I probs won't have sex before I do anyway but I like to think that maybe I would haha.

Well if you look anything like your avatar I would bang you. We can have anime sex. LOL Just kidding.

 

[CoolGuy9]

Well if you look anything like your avatar I would bang you. We can have anime sex. LOL Just kidding.

Babe, you got me so turned on, but then you said you were kidding :(

 

[Kyrok]

Adult virginity is self-perpetuating. If you're a virgin not by choice and over 22 or so, you're screwed. Get a hooker. Get that over with and out of your system. Then find a real relationship. Our society is too puritanical. Hookers ... oldest profession.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Babe, you got me so turned on, but then you said you were kidding :(

LOL Of course I was kidding. What do you think were actually going to have anime sex, and your missing out on all the action. LOL

 

[CoolGuy9]

LOL Of course I was kidding. What do you think were actually going to have anime sex, and your missing out on all the action. LOL

Anime sex>real sex /s

 

[Pepega]

WEEBS
It actually surprises me how much people in here seems to watch anime, maybe you should stop, I never heard of a happy weeb

 

[21Neberg]

It's not sad and pathetic, because I want a relationship, but because I can't get into a relationship like that due to my shitty social skills. Gonna try therapy soon as that is the only thing that might save me. If it fails then ctb is my last option. Also sorry to hear that you have nothing to offer.

I'm really glad you're giving therapy another try before you go. It's something I'm doing too, and I think everyone should do it.
As for your romantic struggles, I don't know what these words are worth but I used to be in your shoes. Through some miracle I managed to connect with a great girl, and we did hit if off. However, me being the emotional piece of shit I am, it ended after a while. Currently I'm stuck on thinking about her two months after the relationship ended, and she's long gotten over me. Moral of the story, relationships can leave you in worse shape than before.

 

[CoolGuy9]

View attachment 8799 WEEBS
It actually surprises me how much people in here seems to watch anime, maybe you should stop, I never heard of a happy weeb

Lol. I actually only like 1 anime and that's JoJo's Bizarre Adventure.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

Anyone who feels bad about being a virgin: it feels much worse to hate yourself for having too much sex. It's like "I fucked THAT person?! What the hell is wrong with me?". Self respect feels better than sex, trust me.

And knowing people are only interested in you for sex.

 

[PsychoPyro]

Look, I don't have anything to help you get in a meaningful relationship or to help you realize how to follow your desires. But I do know something that has worked for me to let relationships fade all the way to the back of my mind.

Maybe it's the chronic pain, anxiety, and chronic pain that made it so. Maybe it's burying my desires. Maybe it's the belief that I shouldn't drag someone into my shitshow, and I'm kidding myself that I don't even want a relationship. But I know for a fact that days and days go by without me giving a single thought about relationships in a sense that pertains to me.


It's like I finally realize that relationships just make life even more of a drag throughout. There are 2 substances that have majorly helped this realization:


1.) LSD
2.) Kratom

LSD allowed me the insight into my desires and needs. Kratom killed my sexual instincts. Kratom is by far the best thing I've tried for pain, anxiety, depression, etc, but one side effect I didn't expect is that over time, it helped me become more logical about my inherent addiction to love and my need for a partner.


Kratom helps keep your hormones from overriding you. This results in a decrease in muscle mass, in sperm production, but most importantly, in sex drive/libido, drive for love, and addiction to being desired.



Kratom didn't turn me away from relationships, but it let me actualize the cost/benefit instead of my brain SCREAMING at me to find love. I didn't even want love, I wanted to escape the crushing torture of being undesirable. And I have escaped that, but without having to shove my fist into the woodchipper of romance.

There will always be that primal, instinctual desire to find a mate despite how terrible and destructive relationships tend to be, and how much they may hurt you. But you can control it. Despite how the survival instinct is the most deeply ingrained, strongest instinct we have burned deep, deep within our brain stem and riddled throughout our subconscious, we can overcome it. Same goes for that illogical desire for a mate that we all, and I mean ALL, carry with us all of our conscious life.

You can overcome your survival instinct. You can put yourself in the right mindset, you can drink alcohol or use benzos or dissociatives to kill your survival instinct, but the instinct to keep breathing despite all logic will remain strong. However, this strength can be outweighed by the desire to end the pain and suffering that life entails.

Same goes for romance/sexuality. You can recognize that you are driven to relationships despite their inherent harm. You can use substances to control yourself. Don't get me wrong, some relationships are mutually beneficial, but the vast majority are completely destructive to both parties.

Hope this helps. Honestly, kratom has made it so that relationships have only crossed my mind objectively, not in a subjective sense as in "I want a relationship" or "I need sex".


There's that stupid cry for pleasure, but we have opposable thumbs for a reason. And that reason is not for survival. It's for beating the royal fuck outta that cock til ya pass out.

 

[Bentley Goldman]

i saw an escort last night .. it was terrible

( i was going to make a thread about it but decided not to .. let me know if I should )

 

[Pepega]

wanted to search up kratom until i saw ''decrease muscle mass'', gym rats will understand

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Look, I don't have anything to help you get in a meaningful relationship or to help you realize how to follow your desires. But I do know something that has worked for me to let relationships fade all the way to the back of my mind.

Maybe it's the chronic pain, anxiety, and chronic pain that made it so. Maybe it's burying my desires. Maybe it's the belief that I shouldn't drag someone into my shitshow, and I'm kidding myself that I don't even want a relationship. But I know for a fact that days and days go by without me giving a single thought about relationships in a sense that pertains to me.


It's like I finally realize that relationships just make life even more of a drag throughout. There are 2 substances that have majorly helped this realization:


1.) LSD
2.) Kratom

LSD allowed me the insight into my desires and needs. Kratom killed my sexual instincts. Kratom is by far the best thing I've tried for pain, anxiety, depression, etc, but one side effect I didn't expect is that over time, it helped me become more logical about my inherent addiction to love and my need for a partner.


Kratom helps keep your hormones from overriding you. This results in a decrease in muscle mass, in sperm production, but most importantly, in sex drive/libido, drive for love, and addiction to being desired.



Kratom didn't turn me away from relationships, but it let me actualize the cost/benefit instead of my brain SCREAMING at me to find love. I didn't even want love, I wanted to escape the crushing torture of being undesirable. And I have escaped that, but without having to shove my fist into the woodchipper of romance.

There will always be that primal, instinctual desire to find a mate despite how terrible and destructive relationships tend to be, and how much they may hurt you. But you can control it. Despite how the survival instinct is the most deeply ingrained, strongest instinct we have burned deep, deep within our brain stem and riddled throughout our subconscious, we can overcome it. Same goes for that illogical desire for a mate that we all, and I mean ALL, carry with us all of our conscious life.

You can overcome your survival instinct. You can put yourself in the right mindset, you can drink alcohol or use benzos or dissociatives to kill your survival instinct, but the instinct to keep breathing despite all logic will remain strong. However, this strength can be outweighed by the desire to end the pain and suffering that life entails.

Same goes for romance/sexuality. You can recognize that you are driven to relationships despite their inherent harm. You can use substances to control yourself. Don't get me wrong, some relationships are mutually beneficial, but the vast majority are completely destructive to both parties.

Hope this helps. Honestly, kratom has made it so that relationships have only crossed my mind objectively, not in a subjective sense as in "I want a relationship" or "I need sex".


There's that stupid cry for pleasure, but we have opposable thumbs for a reason. And that reason is not for survival. It's for beating the royal fuck outta that cock til ya pass out.

This is an excellent post, thank you <3 I remember even being on like 20 mg lexapro and it killed my sex drive, but now with dph and dxm that is a good numbing agent in a way though sometimes diphenhydramine makes me more arousable for some reason but dxm tends to help me "transcend" those thoughts <3 All that gets left is that empathy I still get a bit though I know it's not an empathogen like MDMA? Never tried that one but interesting post, I wanna try kratom now <3

 

[Pepega]

i saw an escort last night .. it was terrible

( i was going to make a thread about it but decided not to .. let me know if I should )

i'm curious, please tell us