Discussion Anyone else thinks of death overall constantly?

[sgifeei]

Like, I get scared and imagine my loved ones die, me dying, Idk just got obsessed over death. Any idea why that might happend to someone? Just wanna say, I didnt lose anyone recently, but did love a dear friend of mine in the past.

 

[Hollowman]

Pretty much. There's all kinds of reasons why it might happen.

 

[LostLily]

Imaging my own death gives me a sense of power and relief

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I think about death constantly. I'm scared to die but yet I want to die.and i don't want to be here to see my loved one die.

 

[zadyszka]

Yes, death is on my mind almost 24/7. Whenever something bad happens or I'm stressed, my first thought is immediately how much better I'll feel on the day I die, and that it'll all be over soon. No matter what I'm doing, my brain always finds a way to connect everything to death.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

For whatever reason, thoughts of death follow me everywhere. I will look at different things and wonder how I can use it to ctb.

I passed an extremely tall radio/cellphone tower yesterday, and imagined jumping from the top.

 

[TheHolySword]

I don't think of death in general constantly, I only think of my death. At work, at home, with friends or family, I am always thinking of ctbing. It is a never ending loop that plays in my mind and I can't wait until the day I can turn it off

 

[Defenestration]

Oui, la mort est dans mes pensées presque 24 heures sur 24, 7 jours sur 7. Chaque fois qu'il m'arrive quelque chose de mal ou que je suis stressée, ma première pensée est immédiatement que je me sentirai mieux le jour de ma mort et que tout sera bientôt terminé. Quoi que je fasse, mon cerveau trouve toujours un moyen de tout relier à la mort.

This

 

[LostLily]

For whatever reason, thoughts of death follow me everywhere. I will look at different things and wonder how I can use it to ctb.

I passed an extremely tall radio/cellphone tower yesterday, and imagined jumping from the top.

Same, when I pass abridge I imagine jumping off it

 

[butimbleeding]

I hate thinking about others' death because I don't think they deserve it, but constantly fantasize about my own. It's painful how low of an opinion I have of myself but I wish I could find a way to turn it off

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, in fact it's all I've ever thought of, to permanently cease existing is all I ever hope for and wish for, I have no interest in suffering in this meaningless, torturous existence and I see existence as the most horrific abomination that just brings harm, never existing again would be the relief for me. I'd always prefer to die than to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just to die in agony from old age, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, it's all I've ever wished for, I just want the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, to me existence just feels like a terrible mistake.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, every waking second I'm thinking and wishing that I was dead. I think that being dead for me is perfection as I no longer have to suffer or care about anything in life as there'd be no me

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes I want to die asap. My Death would solve all my problems instantly and forever no more pain suffering problems bad memories ever . After Death is non-existence forever. If I don't exist then I can't suffer and don't have to do anything nothing will matter then . I hate having to do anything like work taking out the trash , cleaning toilet, having to eat 3 times a day , groceries ,chores, etc

I hate doing groceries washing clothes fixing problems,

I hate being under the threat of unbearable pain

I hate having to do anything I hate me living

And I'm glad the universe will expand into nothingness and also die. I'm glad the universe will also die as that will further guarantee I won't ever exist again

Future of an expanding universe - Wikipedia

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[coffeebeany]

I don't think of death in general constantly, I only think of my death. At work, at home, with friends or family, I am always thinking of ctbing. It is a never ending loop that plays in my mind and I can't wait until the day I can turn it off

It's exactly the same for me. Like an obsession. It's the first thought in the morning and the last one before I go to sleep. It follows me everywhere and I just want that noise to stop. I m looking forward to that day.

 

[CantDoIt]

I am literally always thinking about it and even getting excited for it.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Pretty much every minute of the day (and night sometimes). I'm afraid of dying, but I just want to be dead.

 

[isolatedl111]

Like, I get scared and imagine my loved ones die, me dying, Idk just got obsessed over death. Any idea why that might happend to someone? Just wanna say, I didnt lose anyone recently, but did love a dear friend of mine in the past.

Everyday multiple times.
I imagine my suicide daily

 

[howunfortunateforme]

It's exactly the same for me. Like an obsession. It's the first thought in the morning and the last one before I go to sleep. It follows me everywhere and I just want that noise to stop. I m looking forward to that day.

Same wishing I would just die in my sleep. I have zero quality of life and am a vegetable pretty much. Existing hoping someone will just end it for me.

 

[PlannedforPeru]

Yes, and I've concluded the luckiest people are those who've enjoyed their lives with little resistance and then eventually pass in their sleep without even a hint of their impending death. Unfortunately, my life has been the opposite and now my last moments will probably be anxiety ridden.