Discussion Anyone else unable to do anything?

[katara]

I feel so guilty for saying this but I haven't done anything in years. most ppl spend their 20s going to college I never even finished high school and have done nothing since then. When I was in school I didn't do anything then either. I spent everyday in school then came home and laid down and would maybe watch YouTube or look at stuff online. I didn't have any hobbies. I didn't play any sports, I have no trophies no degree. I live with my mom and she doesn't care and I know she doesn't bc I got sick recently and have been in bed more and she doesn't care. I'm hungry but I don't even want to eat. I wish I could be anorexic but I already lack the energy for anything I can't imagine being anorexic.
I don't know what I could do at this point. I'm always by myself and I just feel like this is hell. I'll never have money so I know I'll just be sitting here as time goes on.

 

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me for my chronic illnesses, can't read all the post because my eyes hurt but yeah you are not alone

 

[katara]

me for my chronic illnesses, can't read all the post because my eyes hurt but yeah you are not alone

Try using dark mode I can't use anything but that bc white mode hurts my eyes. I'm tired as fuck all the time so focusing is already so hard.

 

[overload]

always use it, i have a condition called visual snow syndrome and my case is particular with extreme eye neck head and ear pain, it gets worse with screen use no matter what. thx anyways.

 

[Carrot]

I did try in life at some point, now I'm done. Not enjoying anything, sure, I indulge in escapism, but it's not even "fun", it's a distraction until I have an opportunity to ctb.

I'm worried only-SN won't work, but I don't even want to bother getting other stuff, maybe some OTC AE. I learnt that SN can explode with some stuff like lithium (it doesn't mean that lithium pills will cause an explosion, I don't know), I'm just worried about mixing SN with some random drugs (to lose consciousness), because it could burn a hole in my stomach or something. You never know any potential interactions.

 

[katara]

I did try in life at some point, now I'm done. Not enjoying anything, sure, I indulge in escapism, but it's not even "fun", it's a distraction until I have an opportunity to ctb.

Same, and I haven't been eating the past few days. I woke up thinking my mom surely would have noticed and brought me home something to eat, but no. I feel sick and I feel like crying. I don't know why I expect anything from anyone. My mom is probably tired of me living here and has made subtle comments recently about how most people die around 70 so she might not have long. Everything she says is always about her tho, I think she just doesn't want to be put in a nursing home and that's why every year she'll have a little conversation with me like this. I'm all on my own and I don't have any family to rely on. At this point things are already way too far and there's no way to fix what's happened. I'm just struggling to find the energy to get up and walk away from my failure life.

 

[mourningyesterday]

always use it, i have a condition called visual snow syndrome and my case is particular with extreme eye neck head and ear pain, it gets worse with screen use no matter what. thx anyways.

also got VSS, its taken my life from me

 

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also got VSS, its taken my life from me

it's hell on earth. which symptoms you have?

 

[Notlikeforte]

I'm nearly 25 and I still have done nothing with my life. I don't know how other people can "do" things. I feel like I have some kind of fundamental disconnect with the world and other people.

 

[katara]

I'm nearly 25 and I still have done nothing with my life. I don't know how other people can "do" things. I feel like I have some kind of fundamental disconnect with the world and other people.

Right? And it will be any day I'll be 30 at this point and by then I'll be too old to have accomplished literally nothing. If ur 30 and never been married, have no degree, no business or property, that's got to be the worst thing I can imagine. I wish there was someone near me with a similar situation and mindset so I would've have to do this alone. I didn't graduate high school and since I havent really done anything and have no skills I worry I'm not smart enough

 

[Notlikeforte]

I'm at the point now where my doctor pretty much has given up on me having some kind of job/career and just straight up tells me about something called "failure to thrive".

 

[katara]

I'm at the point now where my doctor pretty much has given up on me having some kind of job/career and just straight up tells me about something called "failure to thrive".

I feel like everyone has given up on me too. I feel like my mom hates me because other moms help their kids so ppl don't get to the point I'm at. I'm always feeling guilty just for asking for basic things. I can stop eating for days and nobody cares. I could cut my wrists and nobody cares. My mom would just say "that isn't like her" if I killed myself bc she doesn't care I've been in hell for years, before we even moved her she didn't she never offered me help. She never cared that I almost failed a grade, she didn't care when I finally did. I just feel like a crazy person every day bc I can't do anything to leave so I ask myself why I'm complaining when I can't even find the will to make a move and get away from here I'm trapped in movie where every day is the same and I can't get it to stop repeating.