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JipJopMop

Member
Mar 6, 2021
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If so, what are they?

What are your reasons for living, if any?
 
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Last chance

Specialist
Feb 6, 2021
346
The ever decreasing hope that things will get better.
 
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Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
The only thing that carries me forward is prior inertia. That's about it. My mother is the only one of the two of us who still has her small hopes for the future, but even that is becoming less and less nowadays. This to me is more depressing to see happen, as opposed to suffering my own long established bereavement of hope or even the most minimal positive expectations for the future. Having said all that, I of course like to sleep, since it's as close to death as I can get without actually killing myself. The worst part is always waking up. I also have some small desires that cling to me like so much lint on an old sweater, but since I know they aren't possible they more resemble a recurring irritant on my psyche as opposed to something that actually compels me to live.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,760
Holding on a few more days for the sake of my family, nothing I want out of this shithole.
 
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saltshaker

saltshaker

salt shaker, rule breaker
Jan 29, 2021
402
The people around you. Witnessing more of human history. Cheese maybe.

That last breathes coming for you, if you really can't think of anything.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,495
Temporarily, I would say sex, money, revenge, or anything that makes you feel good. Nothing that matters in the long run tough.
 
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
Before I was ill there where, now all I can think of is food, my twin, and how hard it is to CTB. But the suffering I'm in is much greater than the small amount of pleasure I can get from food or caring from my twin.


For someone who is healthy I'll think:
Sex
Food
Travel
Going out /Relationships
Hobbies, pets, sports, etc
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,235
For me, the only reasons to stay in this reality are all the various ways to escape it. Shows, games, and movies all bring me joy in ways the real world hasn't been able to yet!

If I wasn't already going to CTB next year due to perpetual loneliness then the only other reason for me to continue living is to see if they finally master virtual reality so that I can optimize a perfect existence. That could take 100s of years though so I guess CTB it is.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,495
Before I was ill there where, now all I can think of is food, my twin, and how hard it is to CTB. But the suffering I'm in is much greater than the small amount of pleasure I can get from food or caring from my twin.


For someone who is healthy I'll think:
Sex
Food
Travel
Going out /Relationships
Hobbies, pets, sports, etc
I'm terribly sorry for your condition. You are right though, what may being someone enough happiness / satisfaction to delay ctb, may not be enough for someone else, depending on their circumstances.
 
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kovkay

kovkay

Experienced
Jun 29, 2020
245
I really want to see advancements in tech in 50-60 years. I can't wait for the day brain-computer interfaces are the norm.
 
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262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
You mean, what are your rationalizations for staying alive? I don't think I have any. The council always votes for self-preservation and there isn't much I can do about it.

The difference I see here between reason and rationalization is that the first one tells why it's a good idea for you to stay alive, while the other tells how do you justify your inability to die while maintaining the sense of being in control.
 
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AE2021

Experienced
Sep 21, 2020
216
The main reason right now that I want to continue is for my dog! He is a rescue and I really love him. He has basically saved my life. Would never do anything that would put him at risk. He is getting older though. After he passes not only will I be unconsolably sad, but there really will not be anything to hang around here for. Other than just to observe the worlds continued deterioration, like some of you have mentioned.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
I lived all of my adult life taking care of others. Daughters, husbands, grandchildren. Once I was no longer needed, I was abandoned.

Now, I am taking care of myself and my little furry companion, who never ceases to amaze me. I live for him and for myself. I live for the things I enjoy doing, the new things I may learn. The little projects around the house that I can get done that give me a sense of accomplishment. None of it is earth shattering stuff, but I force myself to do things that are scary, like the other day when I fired up the skil saw and cut some boards to make new shelves. No big deal but that saw scares the crap out of me and when the shelves were a perfect fit, I felt good about it.

I live for these little things that keep me going.
 
Kindly-Anonniii

Kindly-Anonniii

The world spins madly on
Sep 3, 2020
9
For me, a weak sense of what one would call 'duty' I suppose.
Reading up on philosophy, particularly stoicism helps alot during the moments of darkness.
Even if I loathe nearly every second of my being, as long as there is some use for me I feel it my duty to fulfill to the best of my ability.
Even if my 'best' means to merely get oit of bed.
 

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