I think for me it depends. I have autism and many autistic people are bad liars. I had insanely many job interviews and honestly with my C.V. and skills to lie I was turned down almost all the time. I had major depression to that time also though. I was very bad at hiding it. It was a miracle I found someone who fired me after 4 months. Lmao. But my story was horse shit. I would not have believed it at all. It was so fucking obvious I was lying. But I could not come with a better story.
But hypomanic I am very good actor. I think many bipolar people are good actors. If I am hypomanic I have high self-confidence and most people cannot read me well. Most people are puzzled. I was in my self-help group and told the horrible story about the acute suicidal clinic stay. And I was just fine. I pretended I just feel good. And there was some truth in it. In the moment I told them that this was the truth. I actually felt good in that moment. But I have insanely scary mood swings. My brain is bouncing against the walls. And often my reaction to events is paradoxical not always though. I have the feeling there is a factor which is random how I react. Sometimes horrible news make me manic and on the outside I am in an amazing mood. When my grandad died and my whole family blamed me this made me very hypomanic and I was really confused why I wasn't sad. I think it low key traumatized me but not strongly.
I think good lies have some truth in them. This is at least something I try to do when I lie. Telling a true story and changing details. Often these are decisive details. But most people cannot tell that. They have the feeling the story seems believable and true because they feel the emotions behind that story are true. And it has to believable as a whole. Noto too many contradictions. And if there are contradictions give some good explanations for it. I am good at introspection and I can say a lot about my inner self. There are often almost always slightly contradicting thoughts and feelings inside me. Maybe due to my mood swings. And depending on the impression I want to leave in other people I just stress different parts of it.
However, this should not be a guidance how to lie in front of your therapist. I think it is good to tell them the truth at least once before you try to end it.
It is just a problem I face with my self-help group.
But hypomanic I am very good actor. I think many bipolar people are good actors. If I am hypomanic I have high self-confidence and most people cannot read me well. Most people are puzzled. I was in my self-help group and told the horrible story about the acute suicidal clinic stay. And I was just fine. I pretended I just feel good. And there was some truth in it. In the moment I told them that this was the truth. I actually felt good in that moment. But I have insanely scary mood swings. My brain is bouncing against the walls. And often my reaction to events is paradoxical not always though. I have the feeling there is a factor which is random how I react. Sometimes horrible news make me manic and on the outside I am in an amazing mood. When my grandad died and my whole family blamed me this made me very hypomanic and I was really confused why I wasn't sad. I think it low key traumatized me but not strongly.
I think good lies have some truth in them. This is at least something I try to do when I lie. Telling a true story and changing details. Often these are decisive details. But most people cannot tell that. They have the feeling the story seems believable and true because they feel the emotions behind that story are true. And it has to believable as a whole. Noto too many contradictions. And if there are contradictions give some good explanations for it. I am good at introspection and I can say a lot about my inner self. There are often almost always slightly contradicting thoughts and feelings inside me. Maybe due to my mood swings. And depending on the impression I want to leave in other people I just stress different parts of it.
However, this should not be a guidance how to lie in front of your therapist. I think it is good to tell them the truth at least once before you try to end it.
It is just a problem I face with my self-help group.
