Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, bullied, being born disabled etc.

[disabledlife]

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, bullied, being born disabled etc.

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, being born disabled etc. Disability is an injustice imposed by nature, bad parents, a bad country, etc. While prison, legal bans, etc., are made by well-founded judgment (except for judicial errors of course).

Can you stand seeing others succeed in their lives, be in a relationship, travel, earn a good living, be invited to friends' houses, etc., around you? While you are alone, feeling useless in life, others tell their life stories, interesting things, their skills, degrees, marriages, etc., and you stay in a corner, forgotten.

Can you stand spending Christmas, New Year, etc., alone?

Can you stand being treated as a burden? A burden on society? Etc... if you receive benefits without working, while still having to endure being poor, with no future. Otherwise, do you live on the street, without any income (in countries that fail the disabled, or where you are not eligible for benefits, because they exist, unfortunately), are forced to beg, etc.?

Do you want CTB because of all this?

 

[Hotsackage]

I don't mind being alone, but female interaction would be nice. But we are a social species, so I mean no.one really wants to be alone, if they can help it

 

[leavingsoonx]

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, bullied, being born disabled etc.

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, being born disabled etc. Disability is an injustice imposed by nature, bad parents, a bad country, etc. While prison, legal bans, etc., are made by well-founded judgment (except for judicial errors of course).

Can you stand seeing others succeed in their lives, be in a relationship, travel, earn a good living, be invited to friends' houses, etc., around you? While you are alone, feeling useless in life, others tell their life stories, interesting things, their skills, degrees, marriages, etc., and you stay in a corner, forgotten.

Can you stand spending Christmas, New Year, etc., alone?

Can you stand being treated as a burden? A burden on society? Etc... if you receive benefits without working, while still having to endure being poor, with no future. Otherwise, do you live on the street, without any income (in countries that fail the disabled, or where you are not eligible for benefits, because they exist, unfortunately), are forced to beg, etc.?

Do you want CTB because of all this?

Yes

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's more from choice that I'm alone and most of the time, it doesn't bother me. As for the reasons- social anxiety I guess. Bad experiences have put me off being around people. Sometimes I've done something to embarrass myself. Some people have actively made me feel shit about myself. But, even the more positive experiences have become bittersweet. People are so unreliable. It's so risky getting close to people and relying on them because it hurts when they let you down. It simply doesn't seem worth the risk or effort now to form new relationships/friendships.

 

[PlasticFace]

Yes, I'm extremely alone. I've been on my own since birth.
As a kid, my family was negligent and I was always afraid. School was my only escape from abuse but I had to deal with mean kids instead. I mean, I was practically kidnapped and my own mother didn't care.
Now, I'm suffering the consequences of probably the worst decision of my life. I'm doomed to be unloved and unrecognized. All I wanted was to be free and CTB but instead, I'm stuck in almost a limbo. I haven't had a friend since highschool. I'm more alone than ever, and it's my own fault. Holidays are depressing. I remember every Halloween my dad would take me trick-or-treating and let me carve a pumpkin. Though we couldn't afford costumes, I always had fun. I miss being a stupid kid and doing stupid things with my stupid friends. Egg-ing houses and speeding down roads. These are things I think about everyday. I have nobody anymore. Nobody to talk to. I don't even think anyone knows I'm still alive.
Sometimes I just wanna yell out to the world and get my life back, but I don't. It wouldn't make a difference anyways.
I don't really care that I'm alone. I don't blame anyone for leaving me. I used to push the blame on my mother for so long but now I see that this is really the grave I dug for myself. I don't deserve any pity or sympathy, this is the situation I put myself in, so here I am.

TLDR: yes.

 

[disabledlife]

I'm happy to see that this forum exists. Thanks to everyone who tried to reassure me and tell their stories.

We are less alone, even if it is through pseudonyms (necessary protection against pro-lifers, or various reprisals).

But there you go, I think that many of us, here, only have this forum, to speak, and to be listened to, whereas elsewhere, they are completely alone, censored, despised, lynched (as happened to me in a supposedly pacifist association, in 2022).

Sad society which pushes into oblivion what it considers undesirable (ill-born, thanks egoist parents, extropiate, autistic, ugly, small, disabled, fat, orphan, born under X, unwanted pregnancies, rape, too many children, as with twins, born from marriage or a couple that went badly, etc). Ban CTB, euthanasia..., withhold by force, to pass yourself off as a hero, in front of an illusory god, or towards everyone (narcissist), or quite simply for lobbies (sale of medicines, paid doctors, institutes for the disabled, retirement homes , materials, prostheses, etc.). Care is not free and impossible for most ill, disabilities, being short, ugly... You can't going in past to modify your life, etc.

I no longer dream now, I am resigned, but I am anxious. I don't want see other persons with better life, normal life, families, their travels, their diplomas, their friends, ... it's a torture for me, in any cases.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm alone irl because of my autism but I learnt that all I really need are online friends. I don't want any irl friends whether it be with neurotypicals or with other neurodivergents. I can handle doing life events alone because I've been alone all of my life away. For me, being alone is the norm and I'd be extremely scared to have an irl friend. It'd just be so uncomfortable for me.

Also, no, I don't feel like a burden on society because I have no desire to contribute to society in the first place. Actually, I hope that I can be as much of a burden on society as possible since I think that it's absolutely fucked that I'm expected to conform when I was born against my will and because I'm at a disadvantage compared to others despite being autistic. Additionally, society is psychopathic and cruel, they only care about themselves and, in their perspective, everybody is expendable. Why would anybody want to contribute to society? It's absolutely baffling but, then again, I guess social indoctrination is super difficult to overcome

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Alone by choice.

I don't need any kind of relationship with another human

Imo most things are addictions including the much glorified romantic love, and platonic relationships

Heck if I would want a girlfriend or a friend an ai seems better to me . But I don't even want an AI gf . But definitely chatgpt is much better to discuss deep topics with and I can learn about and discuss deep technical theories for example the 1000 brains theory etc.

These aren't the only reasons but what am I what is a human ? Just a small animal. To me I see the constant glorification of a human . I don't buy it. Nothing is important. Nothing matters . Nothing really matters to me except avoiding unbearable pain, avoiding anything bad, and suicide asap.

Are addictions like youtube , Romantic Love, friends going to help me solve my problems?. No if u tell any of these to help me suicide they'll turn me in to the mental hospital and police . So another reason to avoid that

Another reason I don't want to accept life or validate life by purposefully engaging in life's addictions. For example if I say I want a girlfriend or friend I'm saying something in life is good . But imo it's all part of the same evil the addictions are what keep me here . If I got a gf that could keep me here . But I don't want one just making an example. What I want is beautiful non-existence.

Again this is not the only reason why nothing matters but another reason on top of others :This is what I am a cell copied over 30 trillion times , same cell that evolved 2 billion years ago

 

[Want2DieSooooBad]

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, bullied, being born disabled etc.

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, being born disabled etc. Disability is an injustice imposed by nature, bad parents, a bad country, etc. While prison, legal bans, etc., are made by well-founded judgment (except for judicial errors of course).

Can you stand seeing others succeed in their lives, be in a relationship, travel, earn a good living, be invited to friends' houses, etc., around you? While you are alone, feeling useless in life, others tell their life stories, interesting things, their skills, degrees, marriages, etc., and you stay in a corner, forgotten.

Can you stand spending Christmas, New Year, etc., alone?

Can you stand being treated as a burden? A burden on society? Etc... if you receive benefits without working, while still having to endure being poor, with no future. Otherwise, do you live on the street, without any income (in countries that fail the disabled, or where you are not eligible for benefits, because they exist, unfortunately), are forced to beg, etc.?

Do you want CTB because of all this?

Yes, I have a terrible disability, which makes it so I can't live on my own and get away from my horrible family!!!!!!! My horrible family will not let me go with my bf or get into a group home either and plan to keep me forever!!!!!!! My family has destroyed my life!!!!!!!!!!!! I am well beyond help!!!!!!!!!!!!! I see suicide as my only escape!!!!!!!!!! Death would be better than continuing to live this unimaginably unbearable horrific crazy freakish life!!!!!!! Been wanting to commit suicide since I was 11 and I am 24 now!!!!!!!! Really wish I could have taken my life when I was 11 so I would have been spared 13 years of unimaginable unbearable agony, anguish, disparity, and suffering!!!!!!!

 

[disabledlife]

Yes, I have a terrible disability, which makes it so I can't live on my own and get away from my horrible family!!!!!!! My horrible family will not let me go with my bf or get into a group home either and plan to keep me forever!!!!!!! My family has destroyed my life!!!!!!!!!!!! I am well beyond help!!!!!!!!!!!!! I see suicide as my only escape!!!!!!!!!! Death would be better than continuing to live this unimaginably unbearable horrific crazy freakish life!!!!!!! Been wanting to commit suicide since I was 11 and I am 24 now!!!!!!!! Really wish I could have taken my life when I was 11 so I would have been spared 13 years of unimaginable unbearable agony, anguish, disparity, and suffering!!!!!!!

I can't stand the paternalism of others, especially when it comes from his family, especially if his own parents knew that they were going to have a disabled child!!!! I can't stand seeing a person put under guardianship, curatorship, restrictions, confinement, being infantilized, not taken seriously, etc., because the person had the misfortune of being disabled, especially born disabled, ill, ugly, being short, not educated because of bad parents, psychiatric ill, etc!!!!!!!!! As I repeat, it is like a prison sentence, an electronic bracelet, etc., but these sentences are deserved, because they result from a judicial decision, except if the justice system makes mistakes or is in bad faith, corrupt... This is why I am anti-natalist, at least against the selfish parents whom I would have liked to see banned from procreating! I know I may shock others by saying this, but I am a victim of selfish parents, or a selfish country (formerly a fascist dictatorship that absolutely wanted children, the cause of my existence). A perfect and intelligent society would have avoided these births which only cause suffering to the person born, not others, in general.

 

[Want2DieSooooBad]

I can't stand the paternalism of others, especially when it comes from his family, especially if his own parents knew that they were going to have a disabled child!!!! I can't stand seeing a person put under guardianship, curatorship, restrictions, confinement, being infantilized, not taken seriously, etc., because the person had the misfortune of being disabled, especially born disabled, ill, ugly, being short, not educated because of bad parents, psychiatric ill, etc!!!!!!!!! As I repeat, it is like a prison sentence, an electronic bracelet, etc., but these sentences are deserved, because they result from a judicial decision, except if the justice system makes mistakes or is in bad faith, corrupt... This is why I am anti-natalist, at least against the selfish parents whom I would have liked to see banned from procreating! I know I may shock others by saying this, but I am a victim of selfish parents, or a selfish country (formerly a fascist dictatorship that absolutely wanted children, the cause of my existence). A perfect and intelligent society would have avoided these births which only cause suffering to the person born, not others, in general.

Yeah, I truly wish my parents never had me!!!!!! In the last post, I said I have been wanting to commit suicide since I was 11 and how much I would have been scared had I been able to 13 years ago....but it would have been even better yet had my parents never even had me!!!!!! I wouldn't have had to even suffer through those 11 unimaginably unbearable horrible abnormal crazy freakish years!!!!

 

[agony1996]

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, bullied, being born disabled etc.

Are you alone because you are disabled? Accident in life, or worse, mistreatment, being born disabled etc. Disability is an injustice imposed by nature, bad parents, a bad country, etc. While prison, legal bans, etc., are made by well-founded judgment (except for judicial errors of course).

Can you stand seeing others succeed in their lives, be in a relationship, travel, earn a good living, be invited to friends' houses, etc., around you? While you are alone, feeling useless in life, others tell their life stories, interesting things, their skills, degrees, marriages, etc., and you stay in a corner, forgotten.

Can you stand spending Christmas, New Year, etc., alone?

Can you stand being treated as a burden? A burden on society? Etc... if you receive benefits without working, while still having to endure being poor, with no future. Otherwise, do you live on the street, without any income (in countries that fail the disabled, or where you are not eligible for benefits, because they exist, unfortunately), are forced to beg, etc.?

Do you want CTB because of all this?

I definitely can't stand, as mean as this sounds, to see other enjoying their lives, going on vacations with friends, having a family, being overall happy.
I definitely can't stand the holidays, Christmas, new years, thanksgiving etc..
They make me feel more alone then ever.
It a time for rejoicing and getting together with friends and family and I have nothing of all of that. I'm just alone, in pain, sad, and angry that things turned out like this for me, I'm really angry.
I feel like I'm a burden to my mom because she sees me, not wanting to leave the house, not being able to see anybody, even when family members come to the house, I hide because I can't stand myself, she sees me not having any friends, it truly hurts her to see me this way and by the the way I'm 50, my mom is 82, I moved back n with her a few years ago when my depression starting getting to a point where I could no longer care for myself.
I've been in a suicidal depression for about 2 years and a half now…. Plus in past 6 months I've been noticing that I've been losing fat tissue in different areas of my body, which altered the shape of my body, I started losing muscle tissue, my legs becoming weaker, off balance then my feet and hands started feeling numb in some fingers, sometimes it's worse then others, the numbness in the hands and my arm sometimes feels heavy, not mb and floppy, I'm absolutely devastated, I thought I was depressed before this started happening, imagine now.
I've done research about what's happing to me and I think it's a condition that keeps worsening to the point where you're not able to use your hands, arms, legs and feet properly.
I don't want to stick around to find out how bad it's going to get, I don't even want to go to the Dr for a diagnosis, I just want to not exist anymore.
The funny thing is that just when you say things can't get any worse, they do, they definitely do, just when I say my pain, emotional pain can't possibly get worse it does. I'm so fucking angry at god for letting this happen to me, i don't do anything to deserve this torture, it's living in pure agony. I don't know if god exists anymore but if he does I feel like he/she wants me to suffer like this, not just me, my sister who I love dearly is also in a suicidal depression, suffering unimaginable chronic pain due to botched surgeries.
Both of us are good people, with kind hearts, very sensitive…. So why do we have to suffer this way, what did we do to deserve this agony.
It makes me so fuckibg angry that good people have to suffer and others who have no heart continue on to have great lives, happy lives. Wow, sorry I went on a rampage, rambling, sorry I guess something inside of me wanted to let this out.

 

[S like suicide]

I am not disable....well at least not phisically but I am alone:(

 

[WholeHereafter]

Disabled and mistreatment. Brain cancer at 10, witnessing domestic violence in household, bullied and treated differently by peers post-TBI, emotional and physical abuse at home, and then onset of chronic incurable medical condition in my 20s, just when I thought life was getting better. Since that chronic illness diagnosis, every single aspect of my internal and external life has degraded so severely, and made me an unlovable unwanted burden. I'm completely alone now and all I want is to be loved.