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ExtraordinaryDefeat_

ExtraordinaryDefeat_

Member
Apr 3, 2021
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My depression is treatment-resistant, so I want to do hormone levels tests and also consider using Esketamine once it will be available and safe-to-use (approved by specialists).
Suicide is not in my considerations anymore, but the thing is I can't do ANYTHING, I mean absolutely NOTHING. I need some sort of a kick start, like an drugs. Unfortunately, they don't work, but at least I dont' want to end this!

Take Care Folks! <3
 
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endthispain

Member
Oct 1, 2021
24
I have tried everything as well. Iv ketamine all meds and electric shock therapy. Nothing helps. On maoi now. Last resort. Not helping either. Every moment hell. Nobody understands how painful and real this is.
 
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wait.what

wait.what

no really, what?
Aug 14, 2020
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Right there with you, @endthispain. I've tried esketamine. I've tried IV ketamine. I couldn't get approved for ECT, but I'm trying TMS. I've been on piles and piles of pill antidepressants, plus CBT, DBT, ACT, EMDR, and pretty much the whole alphabet soup of treatment modalities. I haven't tried MAOIs yet, and I'm not really excited about the dietary restrictions or the washout period, but I guess it's an option.

But yeah … I've tried the things. I've tried pretty much all the things. No luck.

Also @ExtraordinaryDefeat_ , esketamine is very much approved by specialists. It's really just a designer variation on ketamine, which has been used as an anesthetic for decades. I can't say for sure if esketamine is approved for use in your country, but it's approved in the USA, and our Food and Drug Administration is just about the last agency to approve anything.
 
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endthispain

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Oct 1, 2021
24
Right there with you, @endthispain. I've tried esketamine. I've tried IV ketamine. I couldn't get approved for ECT, but I'm trying TMS. I've been on piles and piles of pill antidepressants, plus CBT, DBT, ACT, EMDR, and pretty much the whole alphabet soup of treatment modalities. I haven't tried MAOIs yet, and I'm not really excited about the dietary restrictions or the washout period, but I guess it's an option.

But yeah … I've tried the things. I've tried pretty much all the things. No luck.

Also @ExtraordinaryDefeat_ , esketamine is very much approved by specialists. It's really just a designer variation on ketamine, which has been used as an anesthetic for decades. I can't say for sure if esketamine is approved for use in your country, but it's approved in the USA, and our Food and Drug Administration is just about the last agency to approve anything.
Iv ketamine is the best one to try but did nothing for me. Esketamime is available here but if iv didn't work it won't work either. Have to go to a specialist to get it here. Pharmacy wouldn't just fill prescription. I did maoi amd stopping it now it did nothing so just easier to go on something else. Washout period is hell
But everyday is hell anyways. I'm in hospital can't function at all. Nobody understands unless they have been there.
Is tms helping. It's expensive here and I just don't think if ect didn't work for me that wouldn't either. I'm just done. No hope left. Maoi was my last hope. I took parnate. But stopping it. I take a handful of sleeping aids and parnate made sleeping worse for me. So might as well switch so at least I may be able to sleep a bit. I just never want to wake up.
 
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