Are you good at hiding your emotions ?

[LostLily]

So how good are you at hiding your real emotions?
Despite only have 5 hours sleeps over the last 2 days, having a racing mind and heart. I managed to put my "customer service voice on" when I was on work. My team leader even complemented me on how confident and relax I was taking to my new position with the company compared to the other advisors. That shocked me because I feel like a nervous rack. But considering I grew up in a family that actively suppresses emotions I shouldn't be surprised. Growing up if I got upset at all, my dad would just scream "stop it" until I calmed down.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Yes, most people would never guess I'm suicidal because I'm always acting extremely friendly and happy. I have to do this because people don't like being around a depressed person. My best friend of 12 years tells me he doesn't want to invite me somewhere if I'm going to complain about anything. And like you, my parents would yell at me whenever I showed a negative emotion. So I adapted and created this fake happy persona.

 

[astr4]

i'm as readable as a book in the public domain would be, truly unfortunate, i would love to be mysterious and move in silence, but alas! i simply cannot stop yapping.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Not very good going by how much strangers ask me if l'm doing ok
Very good going by the fact that my family has no idea that I'm not doing ok

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not great. It's obvious when I'm not happy. Not to the extent of people knowing I'm suicidal though- as far as I know.

 

[coolgal82]

i have no idea? i like to think i am but idk lmao

 

[NoPoint2Life]

i have no idea? i like to think i am but idk lmao

Kind of feel the same way. I'm not even gonna vote because I'm not sure.

 

[Hollowman]

What emotions? I'm numb.

 

[timetodie24]

I put yes as I think I'm pretty good at hiding them but idk. Like I can act happy, fake a smile, no one around me would know I'm planning my death. But the way it impacts me is harder to hide, obviously family see that I stopped socialising, don't leave house as much etc.
i'm not even good at recognising my own emotions either due to autism, so maybe i dont hide as well as i think i do

 

[PI3.14]

Used to. I'm now so suicidal that my family knows about it. I just don't give a shit about hiding my emotions anymore. I'm so tired.

 

[Wanted Opioid]

Yes, because I dont want to end up in a mental hospital

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I find it easier to hide my emotions around strangers than people I know well. Even for those people though I still have to hide most of my sadness and anger until it's too late…

 

[waningmoth]

Im pretty numb. Cant cry anymore, id say im pretty good at hiding what emotions i do have very rarely when i start to feel the tickle of feeling something i just yell at myself till i stop.

Im convinced one of the reasons i cant seem to get proper mental health help is because ive convinced any i did see that im perfectly fine so they discharge me.

Although i did get caught by my psychiatrist recently who mentioned i talk about really distressing things (the few they know about from a silly attempt to actually be truthfull) as though im talking about the weather and that must be hiding real distress but he never said or did anything about it

 

[TAW122]

I think I often don't do a good job in covering my emotions and intentions (part of being on the spectrum too I'm sure that plays a factor in day to day life), but I do try to do what I can to make sure that I never give any hints of CTB ideation, that is the most important part for me. I could barely deal with people in life and the last thing that I ever want to have to deal with is people treating me like some criminal or pariah due to CTB ideation. Above all else, I do everything I can to avoid any hints of CTB ideation.

 

[bitcrush]

Yes, it's not even intentional at this point either. I can't really express any emotion without faking it, and I'm not very good at that. I even had a friend tell me that I seem like someone that never gets depressed. I was shocked when he said that because I was literally thinking about how I want to ctb a few hours before that conversation.

 

[chocolocothechocobo]

sometimes. If I am so deep in my depression that I barely get out of bed I cant hide my emotions because I simply dont have the energy to put on a fake smile but as soon as I have a little more energy I put my mask back on and everyone thinks I'm better.

 

[metothemoon]

Always wearing a mask and being the happy and cheerful one. An act I put up so automatically, I don't want to be a burden to anyone or ruine the atmosphere

 

[Emeralds]

Yes, I'm fairly good at hiding my real feelings. No one would guess that I'm suicidal unless I told them. I'm a more of a private person though. I don't go around telling people my business about anything.

 

[graveface]

Oh yeah no if I didn't hide my emotions I'd be unlovable and unemployable

 

[saii]

Oh yeah no if I didn't hide my emotions I'd be unlovable and unemployable

As someone who is unable to not wear emotions on my sleeve I am basically unlovable and borderline unemployable, I wish there was a guide/book on how to pretend to be a functional human. If anyone has some pointers please let me know.

 

[graveface]

As someone who is unable to not wear emotions on my sleeve I am basically unlovable and borderline unemployable, I wish there was a guide/book on how to pretend to be a functional human. If anyone has some pointers please let me know.

So, I'm not saying what I do is healthy or functional. But here's the thought process. I don't recommend it tbh.

"I'm not a real person. I don't have real feelings. Therefore, I must not show them. They're not real anyway. God forbid I ask for help with things that aren't real."

 

[four_walls_girl]

for a very little while but then I have to excuse myself and hide away so they don't see my tears T_T. Now I'm only able to stop crying by cutting.

 

[saii]

So, I'm not saying what I do is healthy or functional. But here's the thought process. I don't recommend it tbh.

"I'm not a real person. I don't have real feelings. Therefore, I must not show them. They're not real anyway. God forbid I ask for help with things that aren't real."

I am going to give it a shot, thanks for sharing. I think that I am somewhat able to hide my sadness/depression but I am never able to emulate a happy/pleasant vibe. I guess I will have to practice it and see what happens so thanks!

 

[Lil_Keybordwarrior]

Id say I'm reasonably fine with hiding some emotions while I'm definitely struggling with others. No one in my current circle would guess or see that I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts a lot but when it comes to frustration for example it's really tough for me to hide something like this. I'd say it's pretty much a toss up 50/50 for everyday shit.

 

[graveface]

I am going to give it a shot, thanks for sharing. I think that I am somewhat able to hide my sadness/depression but I am never able to emulate a happy/pleasant vibe. I guess I will have to practice it and see what happens so thanks!

I don't recommend it, because it tends to make things worse over time and eventually fed into a depressive delusion that I literally was not a real person

 

[Abbadab]

For the most part, I've been consistently suicidal since I was a kid. Nobody can ever tell, but maybe it's because it's my norm. It certain situations it's useful, but in others it sucks. People think I'm faking it because I seem so peppy all the time.

 

[whatever111]

I got sick at the beginning of the year. I cry daily multiple times. My life has been completely destroyed and altered. It happened so quickly I can't even comprehend that this is actually my life. There's no way for me to hide this heaviness and the affects it's had on my life and body.

 

[ZeroM24]

Yes. I always had to hide my emotions cause they are mostly negative and nobody listens anyway, and I can tell no one I want to kill myself.

 

[failureofahuman]

Weirdly, I hide my feelings from my family but I don't mask at all in public. I cry in public a lot at my university, which is probably seen as attention-seeking, but people just ignore it. My university is large so I can't keep track of people's faces and I haven't made any friends who would see and come up to comfort me. I also don't make noise usually, or if I do make noise it's when I'm alone in a room. I actually feel most self-conscious about having to rub the snot all over my sleeves.

 

[DeathFool]

No one knows (except people here) I'm suicidal or have any other mental illnesses. I think I'm good at hide and seek haha.