LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
I failed my sn attempt and feel so ashamed of myself. After a brief stay in hosp, I am back home and my family is watching me like a hawk. What shall I do? pls help.
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I'm so sorry things went awry! Please don't feel ashamed, though. Missing the bus is bad enough without adding that to it.
I don't know what I can say that would help, other than to sit tight, if you possibly can. Take some time to rest up, summon your strength, and let your family relax to where you have some freedom to act.
I don't know what I can say that would help, other than to sit tight, if you possibly can. Take some time to rest up, summon your strength, and let your family relax to where you have some freedom to act.
Dead_Inside
Wizard
- Jul 2, 2018
- 622
I am so sorry..... I have two failed attempts myself. After my second attempt everyone found out ..... and now I am just that suicidal person. I wish I could give better advice but.... they are going to suspect you for a long time. I just learned to hide my BS better... and basically everyone started getting out of my life because I am crazy. So .... welcome to hell I guess : (
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
I was found early by housekeeping despite putting up a DND sign.....
I'm so sorry......was there any pain before you passed out? How did it taste?
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
Tasted like salt. I had a headache and a burning throat before I passed out. The pain was bearable.
Sorry for the questions, but this is how I want to ctb......how long was it till you passed out?
littlelady774
running on empty
- Dec 20, 2018
- 708
I used to be a hotel housekeeper and we would always respect the DND signs..
Sorry about to hear that :(
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
I actually told the front desk that I did not want to be disturbed, they came in nonetheless.
over an hour.
iHeartRockArt
Wizard
- Sep 21, 2018
- 608
I'm so sorry you went through so much, but please don't feel bad or ashamed of yourself. I'm glad you felt you could come back here where there's no judgement and your welcomed with hugs and open arms. Try to rest and recoup, please and always be gentle with yourself in a situation like this. I know it's hard to have patience when you're so eager to ride the bus home. I wish you safety and peace, no matter what you choose. Big hugs and welcome back!
First of all don't feel ashamed. I think your incredibly brave
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
It hasn't changed anything, I am still eager to CTB asap but it's gonna be more difficult this time.
I'm sorry this time didn't work out......
littlelady774
running on empty
- Dec 20, 2018
- 708
That's right. It certainly takes a lot of guts to do this. Don't worry. You certainly have more balls than me- that's for sure
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
Thanks, my only method left is hanging.....
Taylor
Thankful
- Dec 23, 2018
- 476
You have nothing to be ashamed of, we have so much respect for you for having the courage to actually follow through with it, and you would have likely succeeded if you weren't discovered in time. That's something completely unpreventable, that you had nothing to do with, so it's entirely their fault and not yours. In the meantime, we have your back no matter what.
littlelady774
running on empty
- Dec 20, 2018
- 708
Idk. If I were you, I'd try again in a more secluded place. Give your family the idea that you've changed your mind and they have nothing to worry about. When their guard is down and things have calmed, try again
MexicanTravels
Pokémon Master
- Sep 6, 2018
- 209
I know the feeling of failing to CTB all too well. I have failed 4 separate times with different methods. Two of those times I was found too early. I don't know what country you're in but be careful. If you fail too often, the government can put you in a psych ward for an indefinite amount of time. Make your next attempt count if you choose to do so! Either way, I'm rooting for you!
Hunter
Experienced
- Sep 14, 2018
- 260
I'm sorry that your attempt didn't work out the way you wanted it to. I can only imagine the fall out that you must be dealing with in terms of your family. I hope that you can take the restriction and the possible judgment in stride. No matter what anybody has to say about suicide, your choice was not an easy one. You will always have our support here.
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Sorry to hear LostGirl, but at least your back ... i was wondering if you had CTB since you have not been on this site for awhile.
What time did you drink the SN? And what time did the housekeeper enter your room the next day?
What time did you drink the SN? And what time did the housekeeper enter your room the next day?
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
I drank it at around 0900 but don't know what time they came in. When i came around, it was already midnight and I was in ICU.
Did they say how close you were to death?
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
No, but they said I would have definitely died if I wasn't "rescued".
Breaks my heart you were so close to peace......at least I know the sn will work out cause I will be alone
How much did you take and how much water?
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
Just tasted like salt water........did you down it in one gulp
LostGirl
My time has come
- Dec 3, 2018
- 185
yes, the taste is not too unpleasant at all. I drank it in 3-4 gulps.
