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joyfulegirl999

joyfulegirl999

Odihuu
Oct 11, 2024
27
Hello! I am writing this as a goodbye-ish letter if my family, friends, or peer see this an recognize me. I've thought about this long and hard. I'm a young girl, yet I am ready to end my life. I am planning to do it December 3rd 2024, this is the day my ex arrives in Canada. He played a big role in this roller coaster of emotions. I didn't feel loved yet have an emotional attachment. I want to be free from this terrible God forbidden earth. Angels are pure, and I want to be pure. I plan to go to confession a few hours before to cleanse myself of any sin, and to apologize to my God for what I am going to do. I hope he lets me into his peaceful and loving kingdom, I need to feel free. I'm a young girl who's sinned all her life. I'm mostly lustful, which is terrible. I hate myself or all of it, my wrists, and thighs are covered in scars, I am disgusting to look at. Nobody on this human filled earth can ever love me how my God does, I am at peace with my surroundings knowing it will hopefully all be over soon. The method I would like to carry out with to get this over with quick and easy is by train, there is a train station near me yet it always busy, so I plan to go later at night. I will let anyone I know if I pussy out, and will seek help ONCE AGAIN immediately. Trains don't run after 12am so I'm doing the last train. I understand I may be considered selfish as I've came to terms there is people who love me, and people I love. Yet who are they if I can't love myself? Men can't look at me without getting an erection, yet as soon as they see my disgusting scars nobody wants me. I pray you let me into your kingdom God, for I am scared you will reject me. Yet I know you are a loving figure for I look up to you and hope to be up there with you as-well. Goodbye.



Note: I will be posting until my day is due, <3
 
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synthcadia

synthcadia

dissociated angel.
Jul 8, 2023
256
i'm so sorry that men see you as an object, yet cannot handle the scars you have.

i'm not catholic anymore, but i wished i had this love for God like you do.

i don't think God will reject you. He loves all of His children, as i have been taught. imo, i think God will reject you only if you reject him.

safe travels, friend.
 
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joyfulegirl999

joyfulegirl999

Odihuu
Oct 11, 2024
27
Thank you so much.
i'm so sorry that men see you as an object, yet cannot handle the scars you have.

i'm not catholic anymore, but i wished i had this love for God like you do.

i don't think God will reject you. He loves all of His children, as i have been taught. imo, i think God will reject you only if you reject him.

safe travels, friend.
 
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Wanted Opioid

Wanted Opioid

Drugged
Sep 9, 2023
30
Not tryna be rude but if all the men u know only view you as a sex object then maybe stop getting yourself into these kind of toxic relationships?

Also, getting grated and squashed by a train is extremely painful and a very unreliable way to ctb.

If you're not into dying a painful death, don't ctb like that.
 
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Kalista

Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
Feb 5, 2023
383
leave well
 
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joyfulegirl999

joyfulegirl999

Odihuu
Oct 11, 2024
27
Not tryna be rude but if all the men u know only view you as a sex object then maybe stop getting yourself into these kind of toxic relationships?

Also, getting grated and squashed by a train is extremely painful and a very unreliable way to ctb.

If you're not into dying a painful death, don't ctb like that.
Its definitely hard to find a genuine man, im not ctb for that reason. I dont mind being alone on relationship terms
 
gnarly

gnarly

Rest in Peace
Sep 24, 2024
126
On behalf of all men who see you as a thing and not a person. I apologize. The way this world is, isn't for people like you. You deserve so much more. Your heart is like a universe ever expanding with greatness.

I hope you fly high. And become the beautiful angel you seek to become.

Rest in peace.
 
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