ForgottenAgain
On the rollercoaster of sadness
- Oct 17, 2023
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Yesterday I was about to write a post here when it happened, I started crying and feeling that slight panic, feeling confused. Then I felt the plants in front of me were screaming, stuck in the pot against their will, mad at me. The light from the Nintendo Switch started to blink and it was a confirmation that the plants were angry and now communicating with the machines at home.
I feel like I failed. These symptoms are not gone and I don't even know what they are anymore. The psychiatrist had said: "You are not psychotic, you just had a psychotic episode". My current psychologist doesn't think it's psychosis but rather that is something stress induced. I don't know what my problem is and I know these things don't make sense but even after the incident is over, I can't trust the objects around me.
I keep looking at the plants, waiting for them to do something. I cried for them, didn't want to hurt them, it wasn't on purpose, I don't know what I did but I am sorry!
I feel like I failed. These symptoms are not gone and I don't even know what they are anymore. The psychiatrist had said: "You are not psychotic, you just had a psychotic episode". My current psychologist doesn't think it's psychosis but rather that is something stress induced. I don't know what my problem is and I know these things don't make sense but even after the incident is over, I can't trust the objects around me.
I keep looking at the plants, waiting for them to do something. I cried for them, didn't want to hurt them, it wasn't on purpose, I don't know what I did but I am sorry!
