Method Become a junkie

[saomao]

If I can't beat si, I could become a junkie until one day will od by mistake or not, what do you think?

 

[lovemelovemenot]

ODing is not as easy as it seems, especially if you become a regular user and build a tolerance.

 

[saomao]

Yea but at least you will get high all the time and don't suffer
And some day you will od sooner or later

 

[TimeToDie]

It's not the worst suicide plan I've seen proposed here. Could take a while so better have enough money to finance a heavy drug habit. And better not have a job, since shooting huge amounts of heroin daily could prevent you from being able to work. Or would you just shoot a massive amount each Friday evening so you can recover by Monday morning for work?

Also needs lots of time alone so you don't get saved with Narcan.

 

[lovemelovemenot]

Having known junkies myself, I'd argue they still suffer a great deal. The high always fades, you're always left wanting more and supplying that addiction usually leads to financial drain. Yeah, i guess in theory you could become an addict and slowly kill yourself over the years, but I figure there's better ways to go about this.

 

[TimeToDie]

Having known junkies myself, I'd argue they still suffer a great deal.

Like Kurt Cobain who blew his brains out because he evidently didn't find enough pleasure in being rich, famous, and high as a kite.

 

[saomao]

If you suffer 24/7 body and mind, you can't work anyway, so if you have money and a good deepweb supplier to never run out I think its an option

 

[cryptic_cynic]

If I can't beat si, I could become a junkie until one day will od by mistake or not, what do you think?

That's my backup plan

 

[jake3d]

Yeah, but you'd need to either have a good stash of cash, have a crap job that you can keep while being high, or end up begging/stealing and possibly in jail too.

But certainly, if my condition doesn't improve, I want to try heroin at least once before I die.

 

[blazegames]

A heroin habit is expensive and if you have tolerance (you build in a matter of days) you need very large doses to OD. I think a better plan is stockpile a huge amount and use everything when the time comes.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Most days I feel lik a junkie without actually being one

 

[DreamCatcher]

If I can't beat si, I could become a junkie until one day will od by mistake or not, what do you think?

Wouldn't advise it. The only people more miserable than suicidal people are suicidal junkies. It makes everything you know about life even worse.

And the odds you'd OD accidentally are poor. Just stick with the reliable and quick methods, no need to cause yourself and those around you extra suffering.

 

[Throwaway9787]

This is a terrible idea

 

[LogicalConclusion]

Being high might make you care less for an hour, or a day, but the suffering will be even worse than before. You'll just be adding an expensive and ineffective (for ctb), miserable habit to your troubles. You'd be treated terribly by pretty much everyone, likely end up with legal trouble/in jail, or maybe in a psych hospital if you're lucky. Really, it doesn't sound worth the trouble and the risk. I think you'd just be putting yourself in a worse situation for no real reason.

 

[allgood]

You'll need a fuck load of money, place to stay where you can use freely, constant supply (even with DNMs this does not happen) and at the end of the first few months your life will hurt much more than it already does; some of us already tried this 'method' and figured out the grass really isn't greener. People think being a 'junkie' is the easiest life ever when in reality it's the antithesis, it's a constant 24/7 grind.

Doesn't help that media portrays heroin as this insane better-than-sex feeling, yeh maybe to some extent your first time but after that it's a bit of warmth and not rattling.

 

[saomao]

well i have money and i cant find a cure or beat si, wtf to do im suffering 24/7

 

[allgood]

well i have money and i cant find a cure or beat si, wtf to do im suffering 24/7

Well, I think most people here are asking the same question unfortunately. There is no cure for life.

 

[bacardirum]

If you are new to injecting heroin and you buy a good quality sized bag (x2) that more than likely will be lethal, and the good thing is people will think you just overdosed and never committed suicide. There is no need to become a junkie.

 

[saomao]

general question: if someone is a junkie he still can ctb with N right?

 

[welshie84]

I thought about heroin as my method. Never done it before so zero tolerance. Its just knowing how much I would need, how to inject it into a vein, and if I could inject lethal amount in before I passed out

 

[Umbra]

Your life could get worse this way and you still have 1+ years of life unless you get (un)lucky; of course depending on the drug.

 

[namelessX8]

I wonder how much coke I would need to OD? I mean, if I swallowed a lot in one go. I've been clean for several months, so my tolerance would have dropped. 5g maybe?

 

[Rocksandsand]

Opiate addict here. Like a lot of the posts here have already said, it doesn't exactly work the way you want it to...

Your first hit will be the most intensely amazing feeling you have ever experienced (provided you don't have an anaphylactic reaction to the drug which is rare but does happen). It will be like your depression is cured. For a couple of hours max.

Then not only will the depression come flooding back, you will have had a taste of euphoria which will make the depression so much more unbearable. I thought I was suicidal before heroin, but it was only after heroin that I actually acted on those feelings. Because I know I will never naturally feel that good or content again. Heroin made me feel mentally complete and whole - surely this must be how it feels to not be mentally ill? Why don't they prescribe this? It works better than any antidepressant I have ever been on.

And then you withdraw. And the hell that you have just put your chemical reward centres through really emerges.

I am biding my time for a polypharm overdose with heroin in the mix. I might even do the heroin separately over the day or two before and then ctb when I am withdrawing. I haven't used since January 2018, but no shit, every day I think about how good it is going to be.

 

[mathieu]

It is kind of hard to CTB on opioids, despite what they say. I've tried and failed many times anyway.

 

[saomao]

Opiate addict here. Like a lot of the posts here have already said, it doesn't exactly work the way you want it to...

Your first hit will be the most intensely amazing feeling you have ever experienced (provided you don't have an anaphylactic reaction to the drug which is rare but does happen). It will be like your depression is cured. For a couple of hours max.

Then not only will the depression come flooding back, you will have had a taste of euphoria which will make the depression so much more unbearable. I thought I was suicidal before heroin, but it was only after heroin that I actually acted on those feelings. Because I know I will never naturally feel that good or content again. Heroin made me feel mentally complete and whole - surely this must be how it feels to not be mentally ill? Why don't they prescribe this? It works better than any antidepressant I have ever been on.

And then you withdraw. And the hell that you have just put your chemical reward centres through really emerges.

I am biding my time for a polypharm overdose with heroin in the mix. I might even do the heroin separately over the day or two before and then ctb when I am withdrawing. I haven't used since January 2018, but no shit, every day I think about how good it is going to be.

I wish I had depression but I have something very worse, my brain is in pain 24/7 and I'm loosing my mind and I need some relief I can't take it any more, I'm brain damaged and I can't over come si, what else can I do to stop suffering

 

[Jon86]

I wish I had depression but I have something very worse, my brain is in pain 24/7 and I'm loosing my mind and I need some relief I can't take it any more, I'm brain damaged and I can't over come si, what else can I do to stop suffering

Physical pain? or mental anguish, i'm confused. Idk, what you can do man, if you don't see a clear path out of your pain than how could I. I'm trapped too, I see no path forward, yet I persist, however I still believe one day I will overcome my SI, in time if you suffering persists you probably will too. In the end, we will all find death it's just a matter of time.

 

[not_a_robot]

Lol wow. It's amazing how many myths about drug use the media has succeeded in making people believe.

Here's some advice about being a junkie, OP; never take advice about being a junkie from people who have only ever seen drugs on tv.

 

[saomao]

Physical pain? or mental anguish

both
how about ketamine?

 

[Rocksandsand]

I wish I had depression but I have something very worse, my brain is in pain 24/7 and I'm loosing my mind and I need some relief I can't take it any more, I'm brain damaged and I can't over come si, what else can I do to stop suffering

Truthfully, my opiate abuse started because of chronic daily migraines. And I made my way up the opiate hierarchy to heroin. If you're seeking pain relief, opiates are very good. Just be aware of the addiction and tolerance factors, which are huge with opiates.

I have sustained brain damage as a result of suicide attempts. My memory is fucked. I still have the headaches...

May I ask what country you're in? Feel free to not answer

 

[Broken]

dont become a junkie. im living in a homeless shelter at the mo and some of the junkie things ive seen are incredibly sad. One blokes burst veins in both of his legs because of his 'aggressive using' His legs are bloated and swollen and he crawls around on the floor if he cant be arsed to get into his wheelchair