Venting BEGGING.

[citrusrope]

IT HURTS SO BAD. I'M SPIRALING AND EVERYTHING HURTS SO BAD...! I JUST WANT TO REACH OUT TO ANYONE AND ASK THEM TO PLEASE HELP!!! It feels like I can't breathe properly and it's so agonizing it feels like this will never end and I'll never get over shit, and this world is going to shit, and I miss people and fuck fuck fuck. I'm so alone and it hurts real bad... I'm so anxious and scared and regretful....... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. Even typing this out right now makes me feel corny as hell. But it's true that I'm in agony. It's so oppressive...

 

[DivineSpark]

I am sorry you are feeling trapped and suffering. I think I know how it feels like, trapped with no way out. In constant agony and despair.

 

[citrusrope]

I am sorry you are feeling trapped and suffering. I think I know how it feels like, trapped with no way out. In constant agony and despair.

My heart feels like it's gonna beat out of my chest. And I can't do anything to make this despair go away... Words can't explain it justice.......

 

[soonatpeace777888]

I am sorry for your struggle. Sometimes anti-anxiety meds can help with these types of feelings.

 

[steppenwolf]

When I was in a situation like yours I was very young. I simply walked away from the place where I felt like that and away from its people, no matter what kind of attachment I felt to it or to them, and never looked back. I literally walked away into homelessness and having to build a new life for myself from scratch which was permanently ruined, but at least my life became progressively more bearable after that. The only other alternative was suicide, so I had nothing to lose, and I still have nothing to lose to this day.

 

[citrusrope]

When I was in a situation like yours I was very young. I simply walked away from the place where I felt like that and away from its people, no matter what kind of attachment I felt to it or to them, and never looked back. I literally walked away into homelessness and having to build a new life for myself from scratch which was permanently ruined, but at least my life became progressively more bearable after that. The only other alternative was suicide, so I had nothing to lose, and I still have nothing to lose to this day.

I wish I could be strong like you

 

[steppenwolf]

I wish I could be strong like you

I'm not strong, I'm just fortunate that I found a way out of my unbearable situation whereby I could survive. I literally climbed over the barbed wire surrounding the campus.

 

[citrusrope]

I'm not strong, I'm just fortunate that I found a way out of my unbearable situation whereby I could survive. I literally climbed over the barbed wire surrounding the campus.

Sorry if my original response came off like it was a snarky one, I was really just admiring your strength to do something about your situation because I tend to freeze up and not do anything at all and give up before anything has even ever happened.

 

[milkteacrown]

I believe you're stronger than you think you are. Despite the pain you go through every day, even though it's unbearable, right now you're alive and fighting to improve by reaching out to others. That is a powerful and immensely difficult thing to do. Human beings will do about anything to survive, and I think that in and of itself is strength and resilience. It's built into us.

 

[citrusrope]

I believe you're stronger than you think you are. Despite the pain you go through every day, even though it's unbearable, right now you're alive and fighting to improve by reaching out to others. That is a powerful and immensely difficult thing to do. Human beings will do about anything to survive, and I think that in and of itself is strength and resilience. It's built into us.

Thanks for the kind words Some days I feel like I can keep going but majority of the time I am riddled with anxiety and feelings of doom... It just makes me resent that survival instinct that is built into me. Why suffer and continue to suffer by surviving rather than just being able to go when I please? I try so hard not to feel this way but it is so hard.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

You might be having a panic attack. I recommend relaxing in a warm bathtub or taking a long, hot shower.