Venting being poor makes me more suicidal

[monetpompo]

you're overly reliant on people, your parents can't support you and you can't support yourself, you can only do cheap or free stuff with your friends when it's more fun to eat out or pay admission to go somewhere, and you spend almost all your time at home. i really don't know how to land a job, because i'm anxious all the time and my face makes me look like i'm always unhappy even though i'm just not emoting. people don't like my attitude because i just kind of have a sour face. people who have richer parents can rely on them, but my parents have no money because my mom has a shitty job that she chooses to work because she's too fat and antisocial to get out of the house. the only real joy she has is that she has children that resent her because she provides nothing to them. she thinks existing instead of killing herself or divorcing our dad makes her someone worthwhile. she would make empty suicide threats when we (my siblings) were younger, but she never meant it, she just wanted to yell and scare everybody. she acts like she didn't do that now and she would never commit suicide. she doesn't know why i'm depressed.

being poor in your twenties and not being able to move out is just being in a big pit where you can relax in your bed and watch movies to distract yourself from the fact you are most certainly going to go into debt because university is the only way out for you. everything is about money even if people don't admit it. me and my sister have fun by buying cheap stuff at daiso or eating at mcdonald's. there have been several occasions where my dad didn't have money for gas. we're middle class so we're not poverty poor, we're just people who have internet poor. everyone better than me just tells me to get a job and says it'll make me happy. i just want to have money to support my sister. i'm no good if i can't support the people around me. i don't want to have no money anymore. i would be typecast as the slouching deadbeat loser if i was in a movie. it feels like you have less worth in the world if you don't have a job. you look like you have no responsibilities and everyone knows you can only afford to sit at home. i hate jokes about unemployment or telling people to get a job because it makes me feel bad about myself. sometimes i get urges to break things because i know i can't afford to replace them to punish myself for not having any money. i feel like there must be a class of people to use my situation to feel better about themselves every day.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

Especially when poverty is a problem we have the ability and means to eradicate but choose not to, because it's more profitable and because capitalism requires poverty to function correctly. Working is just slavery with extra steps now.

And everything in our money worshipping society is designed to punish the poor.

It sucks and it all deserves to burn.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Indeed, being poor makes everything more difficult. I don't get these "Money doesn't buy happiness" types, cause in the end I don't want to buy happiness, I wanna buy some rural house with good internet access, but far away from people, so I can live the rest of my life in peace, and also not having to work to survive is cool too.

Capitalism...not even once.

 

[bankai]

I have money. But no joy. I guess I'm lucky enough to have a good mother. She's a doctor, a successful gynecologist. My dad is another story. The lack of money is just a brutal thing to endure though. I did go through school and college without getting any allowance as such,i know what that is like.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

everyone better than me just tells me to get a job and says it'll make me happy

Blaming the victim? That's so Libertarian! Don't worry, honey, they're just trying to make you sad cause they need you sad. No hope = more exploitation!