C
CantDoIt
Elementalist
- Jul 18, 2024
- 865
I'm tired of being ugly in comparison to everyone else. I'm aging horribly and at this point it's unsalvageable. Most people can sort of "start" wearing sunscreen or make lifestyle changes and their skin looks better and what have you but it doesn't work for me because my problems are structural in nature and my skin quality is most ass.
99 percent of the world has an average experience in aging while I look like a former child star who did meth for 5 years in order to cope with the pressure of the big screen. I s2g I hate my life sm I'm too young to be embarrassed of having photos taken. Plus it's been this way for years and at this point my experience has been so sub optimal in that department I want to throw it away. I hate myself and how I didn't even get the "good years" looking good.
Granted I probably deserved this, and aging is natural, but I just literally would have liked a normal experience and maybe to have been like, blessed with average genetics instead of grotesque ones so my experience of life was average instead of it swiftly deteriorating. I would rather have weird facial features than this.
Btw people are always gaslighting me about this pretending like the issues don't exist. I know it's BDD to react this way but it's a huge qol issue for me personally even though some people dgaf.
99 percent of the world has an average experience in aging while I look like a former child star who did meth for 5 years in order to cope with the pressure of the big screen. I s2g I hate my life sm I'm too young to be embarrassed of having photos taken. Plus it's been this way for years and at this point my experience has been so sub optimal in that department I want to throw it away. I hate myself and how I didn't even get the "good years" looking good.
Granted I probably deserved this, and aging is natural, but I just literally would have liked a normal experience and maybe to have been like, blessed with average genetics instead of grotesque ones so my experience of life was average instead of it swiftly deteriorating. I would rather have weird facial features than this.
Btw people are always gaslighting me about this pretending like the issues don't exist. I know it's BDD to react this way but it's a huge qol issue for me personally even though some people dgaf.
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