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Boxoftools

Boxoftools

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Does anyone else here feel proud of some of the stuff they've done, but at the same time feel they have nothing else to offer? I've felt for a while now that even after what most people would call a successful life I'm just wasting space and resources for someone who deserves it more.
 
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I wonder if this is part of depression? A sort of feeling that you're "not worthy" regardless of what you have done or achieved. I think when you feel depressed you feel that you don't have a place in the world and you don't deserve to exist to some extent.

But the reality is that you do have a place and a purpose and you are worthy of being here :-)
 
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I think when you feel depressed you feel that you don't have a place in the world and you don't deserve to exist to some extent.
I agree, but at some point you have to be logical about it. I've wrestled with that a lot I can't tell if its just the depression talking and of course, if it is I wouldn't be able to tell the difference anyway because I'll always find a way to justify it.
 
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Have you been able to ask friends or someone more objective e.g. a therapist?
I see what you mean about looking at things logically.
 
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Yeah, I have been working on my masters in psychology to try to understand it better. I've actually talked to a few therapists and it normally ends with them trying their best not to agree with me :) <I know how that sounds but its a big part of why I can't figure it out myself.
 
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JustAboutDone

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No, it sounds just fine! And I can see how that doesn't help you! Hopefully some of the brains on this forum will step forward and be able to help thrash this out - or put some thoughts up for consideration
 
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That's what I love about this site, the different viewpoints are refreshing.

I agree, I shall return to this in the morning and name check all the people who are super-smart. Sadly I'm more suited to the Pets thread!
 
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@ReadyasEver what are your thoughts on the OP post?
 
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You asked, I hope in some ways I did provide a benefit to society. I have two children, one in college and one out, and they are good people. I made an effort in our community to support good causes in helping people. I hope I was a good brother, at least they say I am. I have to look at it this way, I'm older and been around longer. Not going worry about things I did not do or experience, but appreciate the things I did do and experience with the time I have left.
 
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Sickman75

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Yeah, I have been working on my masters in psychology to try to understand it better. I've actually talked to a few therapists and it normally ends with them trying their best not to agree with me :) <I know how that sounds but its a big part of why I can't figure it out myself.

How do you feel about obtaining your masters?
I would think that would be an accomplishment of some sort. I have like 30 some credits left when I stopped going. Just another one of those things of what I can't finish. I start something won't finish it. That's been my pattern in my life since day 1
 
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Does anyone else here feel proud of some of the stuff they've done, but at the same time feel they have nothing else to offer? I've felt for a while now that even after what most people would call a successful life I'm just wasting space and resources for someone who deserves it more.
I get it. I have a Masters in Psych but my life has gone downhill over the last 2 years. I ended up getting benzo toxicity in only 8 days and pretty much almost died. Then Cymbalta was given after in a psych ward( suicidal frim benzos). I have no self confidence. Just sucks. Now I am at home taking up space. My family loves me but I cant live like this
 
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I get it. I have a Masters in Psych but my life has gone downhill over the last 2 years. I ended up getting benzo toxicity in only 8 days and pretty much almost died. Then Cymbalta was given after in a psych ward( suicidal frim benzos). I have no self confidence. Just sucks. Now I am at home taking up space. My family loves me but I cant live like this

I took a 3/4 bottle of cymbalta and some pain pills back in September hoping it would do me in. I had no physical control of my body. I would walk and fall down instantly. My arms were like Jell-O but I could talk somehow. I was in and out consciousness..feeling like I had mini strokes sort of. Zanax cymbalta and pain pills. And it didn't do me in. That's my story about cymbalta.
 
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How do you feel about obtaining your masters?
really I did it because it was interesting; in reality, it was just more depressing than anything.
I get it. I have a Masters in Psych but my life has gone downhill over the last 2 years.
I feel ya there, I feel like I've gotten worse since getting it.
 
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