Venting Better off without any romantic relationships and deep feelings?

[albert_camus]

I think I'm better off without any romantic relationships or better said: I'm better off without any romantic feelings?
Every single time it was soo stressful, from being emotionally abused to being cheated on, being left alone in my lowest points in life, and so on. Right now I'm in a kind of relationship (relationship anarchy I guess) with my ex or not anymore ex and there's not a lot of relationship going on at the moment and tbh, I'm feeling waaay better, so I guess it's no relationship anymore? I don't know. Maybe my feelings will change again, but right now I'm just relieved that I have no hard feelings.
She contacted me a couple hours ago and told me that she misses me and I'm still having a stress reaction, tf? Our relationship wasn't that bad... I guess? Why is my nervous system reacting that way. I think I'm scared that I'll end up in the same place again if I end up being too vulnerable with her again, opening up and loving her the way I once did. Everything was fine the last time we saw each other so I'm kinda confused that my body is reacting that way.
AHHHH, maybe I should stay far far far away from love, romantic feelings and romantic relationships. It's a mess.

Someone else feeling that way?

 

[Alias Pluto]

Romance/love really make me insane and have caused a lot of problems for me. I had another meltdown in December over someone I fell in love with who didn't want anything to do with me. For me, I am wired so sensitive that loving someone messes me up. The longest relationships I've had I didn't truly love them. I loved the social life that they gave me. Pretty much I don't know whether I'm better off or not with relationships but I sure go crazy when I fuck them up.

 

[VirtualSnow]

Probably so, relationships can get incredibly destructive and carry the worst. I'm probably in the minority here, but I believe unless there's some semblance of a future which is realistic enough, there's no point at even trying, much less if there's no compromise. Something that isn't stable at once will most likely never be. Then again, I'm saying this coming right out from a terrible experience with it, so it may be my resentment speaking.

And in my opinion, getting back with exes does never work.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Every time I keep getting to this point in my own life that's when reality decides to show me billions of happy couples living it up experiencing all the joys and sentiments I'll never get to have which sadly hurts more than being deluded into thinking I still have a chance.

 

[divinemistress36]

They are temporary. The person usually finds someone else they like better and its hurt . Im better off without them

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I'd rather be dead than not experiencing love again...which is pretty much what brought me here. It's one of the most beautiful experiences and feelings I've ever had, but also the greatest pain I've gone through. Life seems to be a cycle of trauma and recovery, with only very rare instances of love, and I don't call that life.

Then again, that's just me. And I'm an idiot.