Bus before 2025 ?

[squidsponge]

Is there anyone else planning or contemplating on catching the bus before 2025? I thought we could gather here and share our thoughts leading upto these dates. My ctb should be coming up soon. It has always felt like this far distant thing but now it is approaching. Some days I spend reading goodbye posts here on SaSu wondering what mine will be like

 

[acey]

I thought I was better but honestly, this year I think I understand why suicides are most common around holiday season. I never felt this way before specifically around this time, but now I do, and it's my fault. I'm thinking about it

 

[dontwakemeup]

It seems I can't find my bus. I've caught the wrong bus several times. Now all I do is cry and sleep until my natural bus comes. If I fail another attempt I'll be in too much trouble, it's not worth the risk. If you want to ctb, I'll be here waiting for your bus with you!!

 

[TheHolySword]

I would seriously consider it if my SN were here. My plan is to wait until May of next year but I really don't even want to see the new year. I'm just so tired, ready for it all to be over. But I'll still be here for a bit longer.

 

[j1nxxb0yjj4ke]

I wish, I truly wish.
I could try partial, jumping, or train, or even OD.
But idk.
No rope, no high building, train would work but SI,
OD could work but not enough money.
Or I could take my Levomethadone (Methadone but 2x stronger) and down all 7-8 bottles, fill em up w water and down the 14 again. (Got 14 in total, but 6-7 are empty.)
But its risky cuz if it doesn't work, I'll be more than dopesick until Jan 7th..

God, I wish I had A FUCKING GUN.


God, I wish someone would fucking end it for me, fucking kill me.

 

[alienfreak]

I was considering it but just a few days ago found out the person that will have to deal with practical problems of inheritance etc has gone on a vacation trip and i would totally ruin it for him. January feels like it could be the right time

 

[TAW122]

I've always planned for the bus each year, be it 2022, 2023, 2024, and sadly, in less than a week, it'll be 2025. Ideally, I'll go sooner than later, but mine is based on timing and circumstances. I am not going to do anything impulsively or rashly, mostly because I cannot afford nor wish to risk failure and the consequences that follow afterwards (worse than my current state). However, once I'm ready and the timing is right as well as other factors, then I will go through with it.

 

[theolivanderroach]

I was hoping I'd ctb before 2025 but it's been delayed for reasons out of my control. January is now more likely and I hope I don't have to delay it any further than that.