When I was 15 I tried to ctb with pills. I filled up an entire glass full of every single pill I was able to find in the house. Without blinking I started to swallow them all. My mom found me on the floor the next day. I woke up three days later at a private hospital. So that was a complete failure.
I am 41 now and not once I felt grateful to have survived. I have had an awesome life, yet I would have still prefer to have left then. Now my depression is back and I want to do it again. I'm exhausted trying to find an easy reliable method. Pills would be very convenient.
I have tested the tourniquet method but I just feel my head is about to burst. I don't want to be found with my face exploding, if you know what I mean.
I am 41 now and not once I felt grateful to have survived. I have had an awesome life, yet I would have still prefer to have left then. Now my depression is back and I want to do it again. I'm exhausted trying to find an easy reliable method. Pills would be very convenient.
I have tested the tourniquet method but I just feel my head is about to burst. I don't want to be found with my face exploding, if you know what I mean.
