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egAbwkOofXrX

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Apr 29, 2024
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Do suicidal feelings ever go away? Is it possible?

Basically I'm going on 27, been suicidal 13 or 14 years. Been through the gamut of treatment it feels like. Probably like 7 therapists, 10 medications, hospitalization, group therapy etc. I try to avoid triggers but life is triggering it's never good. And more and more and more bad things always happen.

I have never been without these thoughts, it feels like. Self doubt, hopelessness, despair, anger, and feeling like I don't matter at all to anyone. I have made nothing of myself by age 26, and I used to think I would do so much.

Anyway, can these thoughts actually ever go away? Can you ever want to live again? Or will it always be like this, forever?
 
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Some people can definitely experience a decrease or stop to these thoughts but I think some people may not be able to either cus they can't access the resources to recover or that it can really difficult or impossible to despite the effort put in to recover. Getting over being suicidal is very difficult especially if you have feeling this way as a child. Some people can't recover from it from no fault their own. Its up to you whether you want to try recover or not.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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I can only speak from my experience. I am 55 years old now and gone thru 5 major depressive episodes in my life. The times I wasn't depressed I was lucky enough to find a med to feel normal and not have suicidal thoughts. But unfortunately the meds would stop working after a few years and I would fall into a deep depression again. So it is possible, if you can find a med to help you. But I know how difficult that is since you've already tried so many.
 
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Nov 24, 2024
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It's certainly possible for suicidal thoughts to go away for long periods of time. I'm not sure if anybody ever gets "cured", but it can be more manageable with some combination of therapy, meds, and life changes.

I've had suicidal thoughts come and go my whole life (I'm 43 now). During good times I didn't think of suicide and I definitely didn't want to die. The things that triggered suicidal impulses were a mix of life circumstances and other factors in my mental health. I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder, so now I can reevaluate my prior history and see that some of the suicidal impulse was caused by fluctuations in my brain chemistry.
 
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Nov 22, 2024
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I have a similar experience. It's been about 14 years for me, too. I've been to therapy on and off for all that time. Tried all kinds of medication. Nothing ever helped me. This has never gone away for me. I have had therapists tell me that I will have this depression all my life, that these thoughts may never go away. It doesn't mean it can't get better or more manageable, but it's a reality I needed to face. And to be honest, I don't want to face that reality. I don't want to live a life where I'll still be dealing with this in 5,10,20,50 years. I just can't.
 
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Nov 11, 2024
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Do suicidal feelings ever go away? Is it possible?

Basically I'm going on 27, been suicidal 13 or 14 years. Been through the gamut of treatment it feels like. Probably like 7 therapists, 10 medications, hospitalization, group therapy etc. I try to avoid triggers but life is triggering it's never good. And more and more and more bad things always happen.

I have never been without these thoughts, it feels like. Self doubt, hopelessness, despair, anger, and feeling like I don't matter at all to anyone. I have made nothing of myself by age 26, and I used to think I would do so much.

Anyway, can these thoughts actually ever go away? Can you ever want to live again? Or will it always be like this, forever?
Well for me personally, It's just a nice comfort knowing I can end it at any time. Maybe for the petty things but for the bigger things too. I don't think it ever goes away.
 
LostLily

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Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
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for me, my suicidal ideation ebbs and flows in life. Sometimes it barely there but other times it is very strong

Most people who do have suicidal thoughts never do attempt suicide.
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I often wonder the same thing. For me I've had a few attempts throughout my life and I still have good and bad days. I constantly think about it, wonder should I do it even when my life is at peace. I think my problem is i carry so much trauma and I'll never be honestly happy. But mines never go away.
 
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TheLastYoyo

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Apr 21, 2024
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We are in the same boat. I turn 28 tomorrow. I've been depressed since 13 and suicidal since then. (I did technically have brief suicidal tendencies from 7 - 12 years old).
Why should I have any reason to believe it'd go away? Like you, I have tried it all. Therapy, exercise, eating healthy, sleeping right, medication. We may hope and hope for change, to be better one day. But we have both tried to change, we've tried so hard, so long, we've tried so many things.

I think logic would say we tried our best and this is the result...What more could there be that we haven't done already?
 
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cali22♡

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Nov 11, 2023
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Sometimes animals can help
Animals can give you everything you need. i have a cat and she can read my mind she always knows when i am feeling bad what i need even when she is outside she runs home and cuddles me (she hates to cuddle but does it anyway) she is just special. so yes animals can usually help more than any medication or drug. Or you can also try exercise. You can redirect your thoughts to just thinking about your body, I do this sometimes when I feel the pressure to cut myself, I always exercise my hands.

It's up to you
You decide for yourself

Take care of yourself

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CogitoMori

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Oct 21, 2024
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For situational depression, yes, for clinical, no
 

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