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Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

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May 27, 2024
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Yesterday at the gym, I eavesdropped (I do that a lot) some guys talking about games. Well, I'm not a gamer, but still like to game sometimes, but there are 2 main problems here

1 - I tend to like more the niche and/or underground games, whereas people there were mostly talking about popular games like Red Dead Redemption, The Witcher, Call of Duty and some others that I've never even played before.

2 - Even when the subject interests me in a way, I'm honestly too lazy to meddle or maintain a conversation ongoing. I'm too deep at anhedonia to really care, even if it's something that I allegedly like

I'm like this with everything, I'm not really fond for some specific hobby, I don't listen to music, don't watch anime movies nor anything for that matter, don't play too many games and the ones I play tend to be some obscure horror games or such, don't particularly have a hobby or something that I do on a weekly basis like an art club, sport club etc, don't read books in general and when I read it's non-fictional like the ones from Nassin Taleb, but from being non-fiction they tend to be boring to comment with others, and yeah I can't talk about my job either
I'm just a stangely suicidal lad stuck inside an strangely empty shell and a mind numbing routine
 
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Yesterday at the gym, I eavesdropped (I do that a lot) some guys talking about games. Well, I'm not a gamer, but still like to game sometimes, but there are 2 main problems here

1 - I tend to like more the niche and/or underground games, whereas people there were mostly talking about popular games like Red Dead Redemption, The Witcher, Call of Duty and some others that I've never even played before.

2 - Even when the subject interests me in a way, I'm honestly too lazy to meddle or maintain a conversation ongoing. I'm too deep at anhedonia to really care, even if it's something that I allegedly like

I'm like this with everything, I'm not really fond for some specific hobby, I don't listen to music, don't watch anime movies nor anything for that matter, don't play too many games and the ones I play tend to be some obscure horror games or such, don't particularly have a hobby or something that I do on a weekly basis like an art club, sport club etc, don't read books in general and when I read it's non-fictional like the ones from Nassin Taleb, but from being non-fiction they tend to be boring to comment with others, and yeah I can't talk about my job either
I'm just a stangely suicidal lad stuck inside an strangely empty shell and a mind numbing routine
Its hard to care about anything while suffering from depression or anhedonia. Im the same way. I cant focus on doing anything for more than 30 minutes. Holding a conversation also is really hard because I dont feel like talking most of the time or I feel so empty that I dont know what to say.

You can find a lot of communities for niche games on reddit or discord. Remember, youre not alone :).
 

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